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Open Insomnia

well my insomnia is gettin worse these days im hardly sleepin and if i am i wake up to everthin that makes a sound even foot steps it affects my work and the way i act during the day i cant stop sleepin and and snoozing i dream bout alot of my past and hosptial hence why i try to avoid sleepin until i really cant stay awake anymore

Treatments

Ambien Somewhat Helpful

worked for a few days and thats it got hallucinations from them and also got addicted to them i think i was on 7.5 at the beginning then increased to 15mg then got addicted and eneded up takin 10 a day to sleep and get the same effect

Ativan Working / Worked

calmed me down so so good but they had to stop it cause i was asking them to give me more to get the same effect etc

Dalmane Not Working

30mg with haldol 5mg works i sleep but takes ages to knock off

Lavender Working / Worked

it worked to a point tho time consuming to use and also anytime i place it on my pillow it rubbed off cause i twist and turn in bed alot tho it relaxed me quite well and actually at one point gave me a nice pleasant buzz

Valerian Not Working

could not stomach taking the pills vomitied them right back up due to the taste to them ugh! didnt work anyway so what was the point in continuing with it

Haldol Working / Worked

i sleep like a baby but wake up a few times confused

Open Rape

Got raped Got gang raped

Treatments

Talking Not Working

its no good i just get blamed etc for goin through this

Humex Not Working

Open Prescription Drug Abuse

been doing this since i was 18 and now im 22 and dont plan to stop it yet like they say hard to break an addiction first it was painkillers cause i felt that by taking them i would never be in pain but then turned to sedatives to give me a relaxed buzz which was more important than any painkiller

Open Alcoholism

ive started to become more involved with drink to help me finish my shift to calm my talkative attitude down it also helps me forget what bad things i have said in work etc it helops me cope with pressure and gives me more ease in doing my work load before the deadline is up which im pretty damn good at they never suspect so until they do ill continue to do so till thigns come to worse bad addiction to break

Treatments

12 Step Program Not Working

absolutely useless drank during the whole programme

AA Meetings Not Working

whats the point if u refuse to yourself ur not ever gonna give it up tho worked for a few weeks then i went drinkin on the premises and didnt care if they found out or not it was not their business at all to try and stop me at that stage i never really knew why i was drinkin probably cause of the buzz it gave me but now i know the real reasons no side effects whatsoever so withdrawal syptoms if ur determined to give it up

Ativan Working / Worked

lorazepam 0.5 worked at the beginning tho i built up a tolerance to it so then my doctor had to stop it and let me go cold turkey so i opted to go back on the drink instead

Cold Turkey Not Working

tried for three weeks but always seem to fail every three weeks so waste of time prob a good thing for my body a break it needs now and then no side effects just a little delirious and hallucinations some nights

Sleep Somewhat Helpful

sometimes it helps other times when im sleepin all i can dream bout is drink

Willpower Somewhat Helpful

ye to bring peace to my family but that has changed now sorry to say

Haldol Working / Worked

ye cause if i drink with it ill be knocked out at the wrong time and i dont want that

Open Sexual Abuse

well ..............

Treatments

Talking Not Working

who is there to talk to when they dont believe u and take sides of the person accused no use

Open Physical & Emotional Abuse

cause ive been physically abused by so many people that i didnt know as a result of not doing what they want emotional abuse from my family cause i have mental illness and an impulsive and addictive personality they think i do nothin in work or life but sleep

Treatments

Abuse Counseling Not Working

can bear to recall the events around abuse in any form would only make matters worse

Group Therapy Not Working

fell asleep and didnt listen and ended up slicing and dicing instead

Music Working / Worked

does help to some degree im forcused on the lyrics rather than the memories

Talking Working / Worked

my pdoc listens to me but the problem is that anythin i do say always gets back to my mum but tho it helps alot to get her to see my side of things instead of my mums all the time

Valium Not Working

i just take it for the sake of it of course with alcohol to increase the effect of itim currently on only 2mg at night how sad is that

Open Acne

cause im recurrent acne that comes and goes and gets worse when it comes

Treatments

Benzoyl Peroxide Working / Worked

im currently during treament of it it clears it up quite well tho not well enough to see great results but its getting there no side effects ive noticed

Minocycline Working / Worked

waste of money and time useless drug so similar to a palcebo

Washing Working / Worked

ye its workin causeim on benzoyl peroxide wash at the moment

Open Pre-menstrual Syndrome (PMS)

days before my period i get sevfer mood swings and bout of depression symtoms tho i dont know whether that could be related to my mental illness or not or a combination of both but as far as im concerned what ever happens my mood get worse before , during and after my periods

Treatments

Oral Contraceptives Working / Worked

worked at the beginning for a month or two then had to stop at it cause i had suicide thoughts and my hormone levels were all over the place distrupted my periods so much to the point wehre i had gone months without having any

Open Hepatitis B

i was diagnosed with chronic hepatitis B after my gang rape episode whether i got it through that i dont know but they say the fact thats its chronic means that i probably had it since i was born from my mother, needles or a blood transfusion etc my liver specialist says that treatment is not required as of yet as my liver seems to be in pretty good condition considering i have this disorder if u call that so i go for yearly check ups with the specialists to check everythin is stable & good

Open Eating Disorders

it started at 14 but not obvious enough to suspect anything 18 they noticed eveyone i mean that i was droppin weight quick enogh first from size 12- 10-8 and now at 22 headin for size 4 and if im lucky 2. im so obssessed with the fact that i want to be 6stones forever not more than that i love d it when i was 6 stones two year ago and now im 7 stone 6 pounds (far too heavy for me)

Treatments

Haldol Not Working

still determined to loose weight

Open Anxiety

since i was a teenager i had some levels of anxiety thats of no concern to anyone at the time. but now its concerneing cause my anxiety causes me to have panick attacks and health complications when it is severe my psdoc is aware that this anxitety is related to my mental illness but i think it related to the things i do that causes it i drink which makes it worse and now when im anxious in any way i take my medication which is 2mg of valium prn it helps but not as much as i would like it

Treatments

Ativan Working / Worked

worked wonders at 0.5mg which was strong dose for me but the problem is that this drug is quite addictive in every way

Breathing Exercises Somewhat Helpful

it does work but i found when i did it right i was gettin quite bad dizzy spells and didnt like that so had to stop practising that

Klonopin Working / Worked

it worked quite well i miss it i was on i think 1mg no side effects just relaxed feeling and felt nice and floating on air

Meditation Working / Worked

its good to the point where it would put me to sleep heheheh dont have time to do it now too busy at work these days

Positive Thinking Working / Worked

worked for a while when i put my mind to it but when things dont go to plan its kinda hard to follow through on positive thinking tho i certainly kept me sane when i was thinkin positive

Valium Somewhat Helpful

it only works when i drink alcohol not wise i know butthe dose im on is too mild its only 2mg prn whenever i need it i think i need 10mg a night or day to help but my doc doesnt want me dependant on it

Xanax Working / Worked

Wonderful drug it totally knocked me out the first time i took it i continued to take it as prescribed and i was on cloud nine but it can only be taken at two week intervals i was told ah well ill try again soon

Haldol Working / Worked

good im calm

Open Depression

as well as having BPD my psychiatrist think that i might be developing depression along with this and i tink she might be right cause i fit all the symtpoms that go along with depression and she will know that when i tell her next week but if im put on anti depressants is dangerous if u have BPD coz it manifests its self into suicdal ideations and actions and i certainly dont want that im bad enough as it is wihtout that to add to my problems

Treatments

Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Not Working

extremely traumatising to relive the past with soemeone who has nto been through or understand any of it even tho they tink they might the dont

Meditation Working / Worked

good to the poin i fell asleep hehehehe :-)

Psychotherapy Working / Worked

didnt follow or continue with it certaily didnt help at all

Seroquel Working / Worked

its was a good drug tho the downside of it gave me massive appetite and thats why i stopped it other than that very good worked wonders in fact i miss it so much ill ask myabe to be put on it again

Writing Working / Worked

helps to a certain degree of gettin alot out into writing tho i can be triggering and a bit stressful when u have to recall what hurts and emotions u are goin thro that very moment but good for u doctor to see the real u through wrtiing

Valium Somewhat Helpful

it slows my heart rate down when i feel anxious thats bout it im currently on 2mg a day whenever i need it but now my mum is givin me 4mg one in morning and one a night but ill have to consult with doc coz my mum is not qualified to drug me up whenever she feels like it

Haldol Working / Worked

im calm not upset or anythin

Open Financial Challenges

always in financial crisis due to shopholic

Treatments

Budgeting Working / Worked

workin now :)