justblue67's Journal

it would be somuch easier if we didnt feel if we didnt care . have you ever felt like everything is just fallin apart i feel so alone like nothing will ever be ok again. all i wont to do is cry .does cryin make me weak ? sure feels like it . im tryin my best to be strong or a friend . an online friend . she is sick . alot of people would say you dont no her youve never met her well maybe thats true but she has been here when nobody else has .there is a real chance that she wont make it through her sickness and that scares me to death . she has helped me so much just listening to me talk about my ex maybe not ex . everybody says oh just get over her .sure tell me how .you dont just forget somebody you love and just because they leave does not mean you stop lovin them . sometimes i wish i could just say to hell with it all and stop feelin stop careing . you no deperssion really sux then when life happens it turns everything upside down . an i cant seem to get a hold it. its like everything is just outside my reach . what do i do how can i get me back . i seem to be slippin away from me ...