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Dotti51 
5:17pm, November 20, 2009
It's another Sunday, and I missed Church again, I really was planning on going, but had a rough night. It's a sunny day and 55 out and it's beautiful. This sure is God's day, and I'm so glad we have it. Jim has been having 2 days of incredible pain. I had to wake him up at 11:30 am to let him know that it was time for lunch and that he missed breakfast. He seems a little better as Jon and I were downstairs on his computer for Medicare. All I have to say is thank god he's going to be entitiled to it starting in December. I've been in so much pain lately, and I would like just one day where I could have a lot less pain to deal with
but I guess that maybe too much to ask. I guess I sound a little angry
and I am. Like everyone else here I'm sure everyone feels the same way. I guess now I upset over the fact that I didn't make it to church. On Tuesday, in my church they have a healing service and I'm going to try and make that one. I know I need help. I just would like some answers as to why I can't get beyond this feeling. It's been going on for over 30 years, I don't know why it should be any surprise to me now. Oh well, tomorrow's another day, and I hope it will be sunny and beautiful, and hopefully one with not so much pain. That's my wish for everyone here, no more pain.
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It is 70 in Chicago, but I am stuck at work inside. Go to church. Just go. Tuesday, no excuses. You will feel so much better that you required this from yourself. I am sorry about all the pain in your household. I did something weird to my right hip / lower back. Now I'm sitting here waiting for the morphine, Vicodin, and Skelaxin to kick in! Tomorrow will be 63 in Chicago, but possibly rainy. I will take advantageous of this Indian summer, before the snow flies!
ChronicIL
Dotti,
If you would read your journal and see that you add a negative for every positive you have in your day you would understand why you have had " this feeling for 30 yrs." You need to concentrate on the positives in your life. Be grateful how blessed you are regardless of your pain. If you miss church, God knows why. If you need a healing , pray for one throughout the day. Tuesday night at church is not the only time God works in peoples lives. I haven't been able to go to church for over 7 years except for last Christmas Eve Communion, and I am 98% pain free.
Anger only makes your pain worse, it causes you to tighten up which stresses everything on and in your body. Learn how to let the small things stay small and act instead of reacting to your problems, whether small or large.
Love,
Anne
redheadedgranny
Dotti,
Don't be so hard on yourself about church. It's okay. When you are able to get there, you will.
I'm sorry about the amount of pain you're in right now.
You did a lot of good work in helping your brother with Social Security. Way to go! Maybe now things will be less stressful on that front. Relax and enjoy your son's upcoming visit.
Take good care of yourself,
Malena
MalenaS
Hi Anne,
You're absolutely right. It's when I'm over-whelmed that I get very negative thoughts. I know that God isn't mad at me cause I didn't go to church. I just find that I'm so tired I just can't make it. I'm always praying to him, and thanking him for all my blessings. The biggest one being my brother, and how he lived instead of dying. I just have to try harder to think on the little things that make me happy. Thanks again for your friendship it's doing me the world of good. Hope you have a pain free evening.
Hugs,love Dotti
Dotti51
Thank you Dotti, and you have a pain free day as well. Remember that God knows our hearts and nothing is hidden, so He knows about your pain and about your brother Jim. You have a wonderful husband! All the rest is just stuff.
Blessings,
Anne
redheadedgranny