iluvhimstill's Journal

WELL, IAVENT WRITTEN IN A LITTLE WHILE.

I M TRYING TO PIECE MY LIFE BK TOGETHER AND I AM DOING A GOOD JOB. I A MIN DEBT, BUT SLOWLY GETTING OUT.

HE IS STILL DOING WHAT HE BASICALLY WANTS AND THATS ALL.

MY JOB IS OK, I AM WRITING THIS DURING MY LUNCH HOUR.

I HAVE BEEN DEPRESSED, BUT SNAPPED MYSELF OUT OF IT AND GOT BK TO GETTING DRESSED UP FOR WORK AND DOING MY MAKE UP AND HAIR THE RIGHT WAY AND NOT JUST GOING IN WITH THAT ROLLED OUT OF BED LOOK,LOL.

IM GOING TO BE 44 SOON AND SO MUCH OF LIFE I ALLOWED TO PASS BY ME, THATS NOT GOING TO HAPPEN ANYMORE.  I AM GOING TO ENJOY EACH AND EVERY MINUTE OF IT AND I AM STARTING BY ENJOYING THIS WEEKEND TO THE FULLEST.  EVEN THOUGH I AM BROKE AND MY CAR SOAKED UP EVERY DIME IN REPAIRS THIS WEEK, I AM STILL GOING TO ENJOY MYSELF.

MARRIAGE AND LOVE WERE NEVER MEANT TO BE HURTFUL OR SCARRING AND EVEN THOUGH IT HAPPENED THAT WAY, I AM GRATEFUL TO BE ALIVE AND HOPEFUL THAT THE SECOND HALF OF MY LIFE WILL BE PEACEFUL AND WITHOUT MADNESS.

MY SONS BDAY IS THIS TUESDAY AND I AM LOOKING FORWARD TO THAT DAY.  ANTHONY IS MY BIGGEST ACCOMPLISHMENT IN LIFE. HE IS THE ONE THING THATI  DID PERFECTLY AND HE DIDNT COST A DIME,.  ALL OF THE LOVE AND EFFORT THAT HAS GONE INTO HIM WAS DONE FREELY AND WITHOUT A SECOND LOOK BACK... BEING HIS MOM IS MY PROUDEST TITLE AND HE TRULY IS MY BIGGEST BLESSING.

JUST WRITING ABOUT HIM PUT HTE BIGGEST SMILE ON MY FACE AND MADE MY HEART SMILE AS WELL.

OH, I RECEIVED A DOG FREE, HIS NAME IS MAX. HES AN OLDER DOG BUT I HAVE PUT LOVE INTO HIM AND ENJOY HIS PRESCENCE AT HOME.

THE XMAAS PARTY IS COMING UP SOON FOR WORK AND I AM PLANNING ON GOING THERE LOOKING LIKE A MILLION DOLLARS AND SHOWING OTHERS THAT I CAN OVERCOME WHAT I HAVE BEEN THROUGH.

ILL WRITE MORE SOON