Questioning myself
November 11, 2009 10:52pm
Some things have changed since my last journal entry. For one, when I look at him during dropoffs and pickups of our son, I realize I am still in …
CailinRua
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About Me
CailinRua
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About Me
I am the mother of a wonderful four-year-old boy, and a wife in the process of divorce from an emotionally and verbally abusive man. My son and I are living with my sister, which has its advantages and disadvantages. I was recently offered a job after being unemployed for nearly six months (due to layoffs), yet I have to start it and it doesn’t pay very well, so with that and a malicious STBX, I am struggling financially. Given all this, though, I still have a good outlook on life!
I am the mother of a wonderful four-year-old boy, and a wife in the process of divorce from an emotionally and verbally abusive man. My son and I are living with my sister, which has its advantages and disadvantages. I was recently offered a job after being unemployed for nearly six months (due to layoffs), yet I have to start it and it doesn’t pay very well, so with that and a malicious STBX, I am struggling financially. Given all this, though, I still have a good outlook on life!
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CailinRua wrote a journal entry: Questioning myself 10:52pm
Some things have changed since my last journal entry. For one, when I look at him during dropoffs and…
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CailinRua changed their mood to Bad 10:51pm
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CailinRua asked for advice: Would you go back? in the Physical & Emotional Abuse support group 10:37pm
For two years, I have left and come back to my abuser (verbal/emotional), although I often question if…
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October 24, 2009 12:31am
I'm back to Daily Strength! I was formerly JacksMom555, for any of those who may have known me. I originally signed on to Daily Strength about a …
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Little Love
I hope you are doing ok, I know you've had a lot of ups and downs throughout the year. I hope that your holiday is great and that you are enjoying your little guy! HUGS!!!
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Welcome to DS! I commented on your journal. : )
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Hang in there, HUGS
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Hope that things are coming together for you as I know it's been a long year. HUGS.
Go For It
DON'T LOOK BACK. I wish that I left my spouse earlier. You are doing the best thing for you and your son.
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Close Breakups & Divorce
In the process of a divorce (second time) with an emotionally and verbally abusive man. I need your advice and support!
Treatments
- Couples Counseling Not Working
- Family Therapy Not Working
- Forgiveness Not Working
- Leave Working / Worked
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- Support Groups Not Working
- Talking Not Working
- Time Not Working
Close Anxiety
I've suffered from anxiety for 18 years. I've been diagnosed with GAD and I take meds for it.
Treatments
- Ativan Working / Worked
- Taking it now. No side effects, really, and I don't even notice it working, although it does!
- Breathing Exercises Not Working
- Too hard to concentrate!
- Klonopin Not Working
- Got addicted to it!!! Can't take it anymore.
- Lexapro Working / Worked
- Taking it now, but not sure how well it works alone.
- Trazodone Not Working
- Again, addiction. And liver disorder. Discontinued!
- Xanax Working / Worked
- Love it! Not on it now, though.
Open Career Changes
After 19 years in marketing communications, I am switching to healthcare, nursing in particular. I am nervous!
Open Depression
Type: Seasonal Affective DisorderI've been diagnosed with mild depression since I was 23, and have struggled with it since. It's getting better as I get older, though!
Treatments
- Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Not Working
- How do I say this... uh, it's crap.
- Effexor Not Working
- Tried it, didn't like it.
- Lexapro Working / Worked
- Taking it now, but not sure how well it is working.
- Prozac Working / Worked
- Was on this for years, but my body became too used to it, so I changed to something else. I plan to go back on it soon.
- Psychotherapy Not Working
- Same thing as CBT... crap.
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- My sister is supportive, my husband is NOT.
- Trazodone Working / Worked
- Worked well, but caused liver issues.
- Wellbutrin Not Working
- Tried it, but didn't notice a difference.
Open Single Parenting
I am divorcing my husband, and we have a four-year-old whom I will be primary parent.
Open Physical & Emotional Abuse
I've been in an emotionally and verbally abusive marriage for at least two years, and I am finding the strength and confidence to leave.
Treatments
- Abuse Counseling Working / Worked
- Seen some therapists to discuss the situation.
- Divorce Working / Worked
- My second try right now!
- Forgiveness Not Working
- Tried and tried and tried... eight times. It's unforgiveable the way I am treated.
- Leave Somewhat Helpful
- Eight times! And hopefully not counting any more!
- Psychotherapy Not Working
- Tried couples counseling with two different therapists... crap. I think therapy is just plain crap.
- Talking Not Working
- Yeah, yeah. Like this will work with an abuser!
