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Lexiconfused 
3:22pm, October 28, 2009
Wednesday October 27th , 2009
Starlight Star bright
it must be so easy to be up so high
first star i see tonight
take me dreams and make them fly
Wish i may wish i might
forgive me if things dont turn out right
Have this wish i wish tonight
for i am lost, and out of sight
Keep me safe all through the night
because my dreams are now darkened with fright
Watch over me and give me hope
im in a noose and its tightening around my throat
This is getting real, i dont know how much more i can take
im scared that someday i will start to break
and i dont want to, i want to hold on, be strong
but it feels like every second is ticking like a time bomb
1...you need to figure shit out,
2....you cant let your fears control you now
3....are you ready to make this mistake again?
this shit just keeps on playing over and over in my head
i just want an escape, but my only escape would be
taking somebody's heart out with me
i dont know what to do, gotta think before its to late
but im confused, dont know where the ground ends
and the sky begins....
So what do i do? stand here? take it?
there's only so much pretending i can do
How much longer am i gonna be able to fake it?
i know you're gonna tell to me be brave
together we can face another day, battle any enemy
ill help you, take my hand an walk with me.
i love your support and your encouraging words
but sometimes it just gets on my nerves
i wanna be heard
they always preach like i don't know there's something wrong with me
why cant they just shut up, an let me be me
I wanna give you what you want, im here to entertain,
but you wanna close my show down and leave me standing in the rain
This is our final act, hope you enjoyed the show, thanks for your sympathy
Good night to all, thanks for everything, im bowing out gracefully
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Very poiwerful Lexi, really hope things do ghet better for you, you defunetly deserve to be feeling better. just keep riding those waves......
ShazzerInc
“Dreams are like stars...you may never touch them, but if you follow them they will lead you to your destiny.”
Any questions you may have, any venting you want to do....give me a shout. You sound like you have quite a bit on your place and not sure of which direction to go. There are so many things that we never ask help for and we expect things to just get better, but sometimes we need someone to give us some direction, some new thoughts, a new view to help us get back on track.
I can see this poem goes beyond just you.......and it sounds like you want some help, but not sure how to ask. Just start talking, rambling, venting, or whatever to me and I will try to help.
“Don't be afraid of the space between your dreams and reality. If you can dream it, you can make it so.”
rennikc