My name is Lexi and i am 20 years old. i live with my mother and my father, two brothers, and soon to be fiance. i love him with all my heart and i have promised to love him forever, but i dont believe that things last forever. i believe in enjoying things while they're here, hoping that they'll be there forever, but missing them when they're gone. I have been told that i should be a model, that would be great if i didn't have social anxiety disorder. I am agnostic, so i don't even have anyone to pray to when i need hope. The people that im around everday are the people who know me least, i have no one to talk to about my depression, or my eating disorders because i dont want to seem like a drama queen. When you look at me you see a tall, pretty, blonde with a neverending smile, but letting everyone see that is easier than explaining why im crying. I guess you could say i'm beautifully broken. Im too strong for my own sanity, but when i break i need something, so for a while i turned to drugs and pills. I almost died twice and after that i realized i had to get it together. Although i conquered drugs im still destroying my body and my mind. That's why i was happy, after weeks of searching for help online, i found DailyStrength. I hope that i can find salvation and sanity here.
My name is Lexi and i am 20 years old. i live with my mother and my father, two brothers, and soon to be fiance. i love him with all my heart and i have promised to love him forever, but i dont believe that things last forever. i believe in enjoying things while they're here, hoping that they'll be there forever, but missing them when they're gone. I have been told that i should be a model, that would be great if i didn't have social anxiety disorder. I am agnostic, so i don't even have anyone to
My only escape from the real world is my music and my Harry Potter books. I am online alot during the day, and when im not im with my fiance. He is my main interest, he is my everything. Also my cats Yoda, Shakey, and Puppy. They are the best cats in the world and im so lucky i got to be there for them and raise them since birth so im Mom and they know it. My relationship with them has been comforting. The only Television i ever watch is Family Guy, Adult Swim, Ghost Whisperer, and House. I love House.
My only escape from the real world is my music and my Harry Potter books. I am online alot during the
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Hey Brad, im so sorry to hear that! I hope you get better…
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Thank you Linda, i will take you on that offer, always need more support(: And if you need anything im…
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HUGS to you to big ones! and big thanks as well Shaz, i hope it will get better & the journal does…
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Lexiconfused wrote a journal entry: Forever seems like forever from where im standing... 3:35pm
Satruday, November 7, 2009 Saying hello to another day of being me. Another day of waking up feeling…
November 7, 2009 3:35pm
Satruday, November 7, 2009 Saying hello to another day of being me. Another day of waking up feeling like i want my world to end. Im so …
November 6, 2009 9:34am
Friday, November 5, 2009 It just keeps going in circles. Last night ironically, i tried a new drug. My fiance has tried it, and when my dad …
October 29, 2009 1:18pm
Thursday, October 28, 2009 So where do i begin? Im just not feeling like myself today, then again, i never feel like myself, bc i dont know who …
October 28, 2009 8:23pm
Wednesday October 27th , 2009 Starlight Star brightit must be so easy to be up so highfirst star i see tonighttake …
October 25, 2009 12:06pm
Sunday, October 25, 2009 So it is to damn early in the morning, 8:51 to be exact. There are so many thoughts going around in my head. The …
Thanks for the kind wishes. I'll be okay. Take care. I hope you are doing well.
hey girl heres a hug for you feel free to message me anytime take care Linda
Just checking in on you to see how things are going. Hope things are improving some and feel free to message me anytime.
hugs to you take care Linda
Hello Lexiconfused. How are you doing? I am okay. I recently spent some time in hospital for chron's disease. i may need surgery. I have a test dec 1. We will see. I hope this note finds you well. Take care . Brad.
Because i need to talk to people who understand how confusing and distressing it is to be depressed, and on top of it not be able to acquire or afford medication for it and how much it sucks for it to always interfere in everyday activities.
Because i have so much stress in my life and i need ppl who know what im talking about to vent to.
Because i get soooo nervous going out into public. i feel like everyone is staring at me, judging me, mocking me. i know they're not, but i cant help the way i think.
Even though everyone thinks im so forward and social, im not, and i cant let the ppl i know or am around everyday to know that.
Im here because im the ONLY person i know with bulimia and anorexia.
because i know im not the ony one in the world that enjoys it and talking to ppl about the health benefits of sex is interesting.
although i dont do it alot, i get a rush from it.
I joined this group to talk about the issues that come up with bisexuality. gay? not gay? theres just alot of crap to deal with and not enough people i know to talk about it with:)
