lenacat22's Journal

  Have u ever feel like you could do nothing for a friend that you would go over the moon  too have them smile. I feel this way a lot. people call me out going but in reality i'm a scaredy cat. i fear the words of other and the screaming of a fight.  i know i'm suppost to be strong . but i want to make the other person smile, to be encoureged. i'm like a pet . i love to be huged and patted on the head . i enjoy being with other people. but like a pet i get jelose and i can't do enything . i can only watch as people come and go. I will meet you at the door, jumping up and down  so happy to see you. and wimper when our time is gone. I keep to my self . i go to other people for fun and  look for a paymate. i like to be near , but not smuthered. i come and go all the time . disapering, jumping on you with a fly hug.  sneaking around scaring people. i'm a pet , but only few people could see me this way.If you scare me enought i would do entything for u so i wouldn't be yelled at. i don't like yelling , or seeing a friend that i can't try to comferet.  this friend i have known not to long , btu i feel like we have been together for a life time . when we can actuly see each other. i care for all my friends , btu i worrie about one more then the rest . she is a short girl, with gold-brown-red hair, her name i can;t tell, I call her J(yes, she is the one i am or was codependent on.) Well j  is a hard worker , meditater  who has a hell of a life and her own set of problems to go with it. not that any one really dosn't have any bagege. I have to abmit even if she don't like all of her , i do , I love her as she is. love as in as far as normal friends can go.  I miss her when i get to thinking about it . I think she is so cute , like a child , a person i admire.sometime when  i see her lening back on her chair . i makes me think of anime were the boy, friend , or father kisses  the girl in the chair leaning back's forhead. I still think she is cute in face,body, mind(even if it(her mind) can be a perver sometimes) and actions. I'am a pet