LegoJunkie's Journal

I'm starten to get really sick of my life and whats been going on and not goiknng on. I don't know how to go about fixing it but i really need to do something.

My friend finally moved. I was over there for five days helping her pack and clean. I know she is a friend and all but when she had other people who where friends closer friends then i am with her she paied them.  and paied them well. When the day was done and the trailer packed. 

Then i stayed three more days and i busted my butt , i was so tired i couldn't do anything the last day i was there. I think i must of gotten around 8-10 hrs of sleep the whole fiive days i was there. I slept in my new chair and it was so comfy.

So i was expecting something when i left, she even knew how badly i needed the cash because i don't have any to pay my cell phone bill.  And i know she has it. But i don't want to sound like i'm greedy or   stingy, i was glad to help, because i was about the only one that really helped her. People tried but she wants everything done her way and if your not doing it that way you well know veery fast.

But I am thinken about starten to see a counsuler again. I think i have to because i'm miserable and i've not been like this before. I also need a NEW BED sooooooooooo   badly, my scoliosis sticks out so badly and sharply that it is getting rubbed raw more and more and i'm afraied it well turn into a bed sore.  So i'm going to ask my dad for help in buyinng me a bed. I thoought i was going to get a air matteress, but i need a bed because i just cant take this when i lay in bed so much because of the NF and the pain it causes's . So i'm hopeing he well say yes, I'm going to ask him if we could go to lunch on Thursday next week. but i have no money now that i bought legos, and so i'm afraied he well say no. But God knows myneeds and He well Provide.

Without Him there is noway i could get through anyday even on a bad day like today.