My username is a play on the word "kunoichi", which is the Japanese word for highly skilled female ninja. It represents strength and empowerment and survival, all of which are important themes to me. I am a full-time college student in Massachusetts. I study the connections and intersections between race, gender, and sexuality. I also have an interest in molecular biology, cognitive neuroscience, feline genetics, and veterinary science, and spend way too much time on PubMed. I'm here at DS to get support and also to support others. I try to stay positive and view myself as a survivor, not a victim. I love animals and currently live with my fluffy white cat--see avatar. (Aside: The characters for the sounds ku (く), no (ノ), and ichi (一), when overlapped, make the symbol for woman (女) as well.)
My username is a play on the word "kunoichi", which is the Japanese word for highly skilled female ninja. It represents strength and empowerment and survival, all of which are important themes to me. I am a full-time college student in Massachusetts. I study the connections and intersections between race, gender, and sexuality. I also have an interest in molecular biology, cognitive neuroscience, feline genetics, and veterinary science, and spend way too much time on PubMed. I'm here at DS to get
Kitty cats, gender performance, candles, embroidery, meditation, child advocacy, queer theory, trichotillomania, depression, anxiety, eating disorders, bulimia, anorexia, PTSD, post-traumatic stress disorder, child abuse, skin picking, hair pulling, compulsive disorders, mindfulness, coping strategies.
Kitty cats, gender performance, candles, embroidery, meditation, child advocacy, queer theory, trichotillomania,
October 26, 2009 4:24pm
Well, I just about ripped out all of the hair on the back of my head. Practically. Ugh.
The reason? I had a 7-10 page essay due today...it's …
October 21, 2009 6:39pm
Stress!!!!! I have two projects due tomorrow + a MIDTERM!! And I haven't even read my textbook yet! ARGHHHHH1!! Also, I've been shredding my …
October 20, 2009 12:25am
I met with an advisor at the BSC today. She described an "equation" which leads to a form of perfectionism, and that contributes to …
October 19, 2009 4:33am
Things have been pretty difficult lately...I haven't been taking my anti-depressants, which has made me less effective and unable to do my work, …
October 14, 2009 4:52am
I was so proud of myself for going 2 days without pulling. Then, Monday evening and Tuesday morning, I became a wreck. I had an essay due …
Welcome to the Beating Trich Group
ah it is no problem. my sister often hate me when i can be a little stern. she says: "you give you so much criticis, yet barely any love." truth be told i do care, its just emotional bondage makes me very uncomfortable. haha i love your comment on Neizteich (spelt wrong of course :P)
Hey, you have a good head on your shoulders. Sometimes advice isn't seen right away, but as an outsider, I saw the good things you were saying to her. HUGS!
I have gaine 30 lbs since my last trauma, gosh food is good. I am trying to get more vegetables, less fried stuff, but no major plan to follow. I hope being here helps you
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I have a habit of breaking off my hair and eating or chewing it, as well as skin picking (mostly concentrated to my scalp, but before I was also picking at my back, lips, and breasts and now am heavily scarred in those areas). I usually break off any curly, thick, or rough feeling strands and swallow them, although sometimes in desperation I'll chew my hair directly. I'd like to break the habit of eating my hair and am setting my first goal for one month.
I have suffered from depression since my teenage years, much of it stemming from my abusive childhood. I am for the most part better now, but I still slip into it every once in a while. I may also be suffering from Seasonal Affective Disorder. I have difficulty getting out of bed and making myself go to class in the morning.
I was physically and verbally abused by my father for years, and had to watch him do the same to my mother and siblings. My self esteem was ruined and I have suffered from anxiety and depression for years because of it.
I have anxiety stemming from homework, procrastination, and social situations.
