Journal Entry for November 24, 2009
Feeling ok today, My mood changes through the day. Wish i could feel normal one whole day. Trying to stay positive. I think i need …
Feeling ok today, My mood changes through the day. Wish i could feel normal one whole day. Trying to stay positive. I think i need …
Tired of feeling foggy brained and on an emotional rollercoaster ride. One minute im ok and the next im feeling depressed or anxious. …
Not feeling well right now, hoping tomorrow is a better day. Im feeling down and moody today. Hope and pray my life gets better …
Today i kept busy cleaning and getting ready for a full house for thanksgiving. Having family is a blessing but sometimes they can drive …
Today i wanted to just stay in bed but it didnt work out that way. Felt frustrated and irratable most of the day. Im tired of not …
Your going to have a great Thanksgiving! I am with you all the way. Blessings.
One day at a time. I always say it takes 2 steps forward and 1 step back. But eventually we get to where we want to be! We are always here for you. Blessings. My daughter said to tell you *hi* and *be happy* it's almost Christmas! lol
Your welcome. DS has been a great help to me. I was pretty much crazy when I first started coming here. I have a lot od blank places and I just simply do not remember Qiite a bit that I did or said. After my second son died,I think I was in shock for a while. It is so strange when I hear something I did or said, or that I had conversations with people and I have no recollection of it at all. I am glad to be here for you. You know that if I got better, you suerly can too.I know if I can put a few pieces back together, and begin to live again, then any other mother can too. I was so bad. I really lost it for a while. You remember I am praying and that God will help us, when NO power on earth can. God is the strength, not me. Love,Peggy
Thank you for being so very kind to me. You are so right, it is hard watching the people you love suffer through a deep grief, (or a physical illness either.) I worry alot about my poor mother.She is 84 now. I had the 2 sons( that both died) and then my older sister has 1 daughter that's the same age as my oldest son would be if he were still alive ( 40.) So my Mom lost 2 of her 3 grandchildren, and had to watch me, her middle daughter go through the pain and grief of it. You know how bad it hurts all us mothers to watch our child suffer. My Mom was a rock through it all. She even came and helped James,my husband, when I had cancer 2006. She was 81 then, but is in amazingly good shape, and it made her so very happy to be able to come and help us. Mom had watched all her friends die one by one,(she has one still alive, but who is very ill now.) Mom's brother died years ago. My Dad died 18 yr. ago, and the list goes on and on. I can tell that with each one that passes away Mom gets a bit more depressed and a bit sadder. I just feel so awful that Mom had to watch me loose my sons. I mean loosing her grandchildren is awful then on top of that, she sees into my eyes and as all Mom's do, she sees my pain. There is nothing I can do to help her any more than she can help me. It is a hard world! Thanks again, you remember I care about you, and I want to be here if you need to vent your anger or express your sadness, or what ever. My prayers are with you,Love,Peggy