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cat16 
4:37pm Wednesday
There's this guy and it's complicated. We had this over thephone type relationship fora year and 3 months now. We've gone from boyfriend/girlfriend to friends with benefits to not talking, to planning a wedding. We love each other in a not in love type of way...I said things I shouldn't have said, and they were repeated to him. So now he's done. But I've been done for some time now too. He's lied, he's cheated, he's caused me so much pain. But no matter what we came back to each other. Now i feel that this is it this time. There's no coming back to each other. There's no "i'm sorry." or "i miss you." But the truth is, I want him to be happy where he is and who' he's with. I want him to be in love with a girl he wants to be in love with. And i want a guy out here who will love me and who I will love too. A guy who won't hurt me and I won't hurt him. Me and my ex have had too many ups and downs, and we might not even pull out as friends. But in the end, life will go on. And even though I'm sad now "the sun still shines when the clouds are out.."
As for pictures. I had this conference thing for school which I had to prepare for so this entire week I've been getting ready for that. It's over now. Tomorrow I have no school but Tuesday I'll be able to get some pictures on here FINALLY!! Sorry for the wait by the way. It's spirit week so I might be able to take some of my different outfits or something. :)
Life goes on...Time heals all wounds...It just doesn't feel like that right now.
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I was never one to patiently pick up broken fragments and glue them together again and tell myself that the mended whole was as good as new. What is broken is broken -- and I'd rather remember it as it was at its best than mend it and see the broken places as long as I lived. Margaret Mitchell
rennikc
I love what you wrote "the sun still shines when the clouds are out"! And you're right. In the end , life will go on. Hugs, Debbie
1wngsfn
Although we have just met I've read some of your journal entries. Thanks 4 the friend invite. I'm married w/ an almost 14yr old son. Your stories break my . I am like my mother very open minded. I trust my son until he gives me a reason not 2. I can b stricked but fair. He has a good moral compass. Since I am a nurse I speak freely about all things sex. I believe all children should get the facts & answers from home not friends or school b/c then it will b all facts. N your statements u sound as though u r lost or confused yet have hope that everything will work out which is good. What have u done that's so terrible? R your siblings older or younger than u? Do u & your siblings have the same parents & r they still married? Sorry 4 all the ?'s. I just don't feel like I can help
w/o a few facts. Best Wishes!
GildedButterfly