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cat16 
4:37pm Wednesday
My brother and sister make life sooo difficult. they always criticize everything ido, they talk bad about me all the time, they always want to pick fights, they try to get me in trouble a lot even if it's by doing something little that will have a huge efect later. my parents aren't any help either, they are so mean and don't let me do anything, they cage me! i feel like an animal at the zoo. alone and caged while everyone goes by taking pictures and having fun, pointing and laughing. life passes the animals. i feel like i just sit there and ppl shape my life for me. i'm so sick of it! i spend my time in my room, isolated from everyone, i don't see friends outside of school. im scolded for every little thing. i'm talked bad about by my family all the time. i can't speak my mind ever. i can't trust anyone and i can't talk to my parents or they'll flip. So what do i do? i go online and talk to strangers, i turn to guys, i think about death and wanting to die. I want to feel smart and beautiful and loved and have someone i can really talk to about everything that i can completely trust...i want that soo bad, i crave that sooo bad. but i don't have that. i want to run away and never come back. i want to leave the country and never come back, or look back. tears press against my eyes pushing to come out...y don't i let them??? y are they there??? i want to cut or rip out my hair..y do i feel so alone?? like the world is against me, like no one will ever love me. ill be alone forever and i hate myself sooo much!!! life isn't fair. life sux. life's a bitch. life is worse that dying. dying is easy. sometimes i just want to die. sometimes i want to fight everyone. i don't want to talk. i don't want anything. i want to fight and argue and cry and run. i want to get away....i need an escape.
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Younger or older siblings? I am a parent and you can ask me anything and I will not scold or talk down to you. I will tell you what I think, and I will not spare feelings when I do. I tell people what they need to know and I do not sugar coat it, but I do care what happens. As for your brother and sister.....you just have to stand up tall, ignore them and move forward. It is time to grow up and move past all of the petty stuff they do, not not try to fight back and get even...show them that their petty bickering and fighting is childish and not worth your time.
As for your parents.......maybe they are waiting for you to come to them in an as an adult? If you are being whiny and bitter to when you speak to them that could be why they flip on you. I know as a parent that having kids that fight all the time makes a parent want to just go off on all of the kids and not listen to what they say. I might be wrong about this and your parents may be a bit self centered......but try to take on some more responsibility and show them that they have a child that they can trust.
rennikc
Wow i'm so sorry you feel this way. I know it is hard to believe right now but nothing stays the same ... ever. You are in control of your own life, right now! Your parents don't own you. They are here to love you and protect you. The choices you make now will shape your life. Just think about where you would like to be five years from now. What do you want your life to be like? What kind of education do you need to get. You are in control.... concentrate on school to get the life you want. Your brother & sister are just thinking you will always be there and just are not really thinking at all!! Please don't let them bring you down. Enjoy being young it really goes by fast! If you need someone to talk to with out judgement, i'm here for you!!! Hope you feel better soon .... you really have so much to look forward too. Much love xoxo
HaydenJ