the wind
November 15, 2009 12:10pm
roaring through the desert
sand
fills my lungs
like the dust at that other place
the dust of dead bodies
wind filling me with despair
pain
desire to …
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vangie
3:18pm, November 16, 2009
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About Me
vangie
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About Me
Diagnosed with PTSD--was a volunteer at Ground Zero (stupid) unable to work as an R.N. ever since. No support systems in place, I isolate, frequent panic attacks, constantly in fear. Moved from NYC 3 years ago to be with my children--they took money from sale of my home (I allowed it-stupid) and have since moved back. I am alone out here in a strange land. Now that I have nothing (money) to offer them; my children have completely disowned me. Mother passed away 4 years ago. Had a 16 year abusive marriage, ten year long divorce--bad attorney. History of sexual abuse dating back to 7 years old.
Diagnosed with PTSD--was a volunteer at Ground Zero (stupid) unable to work as an R.N. ever since. No support systems in place, I isolate, frequent panic attacks, constantly in fear. Moved from NYC 3 years ago to be with my children--they took money from sale of my home (I allowed it-stupid) and have since moved back. I am alone out here in a strange land. Now that I have nothing (money) to offer them; my children have completely disowned me. Mother passed away 4 years ago. Had a 16 year abusive
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Interests
My old dog, survivor of Hurricain Katrina adopted in NYC-brought her here-she's large mutt and getting ready to jump off at almost 14 years old. Only source of real comfort, except belief in God. Used to love to garden in my home in suburbs of NYC-none of that out here in the desert. Read, knit, crochet, old movies, music, beauty is all around me--I am enfolded by it; but outside of it. I love the diversity of humans--but have to stay away.
My old dog, survivor of Hurricain Katrina adopted in NYC-brought her here-she's large mutt and getting
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Recent Activity
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3 hugs given, 1 hug received
Today
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vangie gave Cry2Jesus a prayer 12:47pm
it'll be ok---it will pass-God has you in His arms and He will make it be ok again--love and hugs-vangie…
Friday
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wonderful quotes--I love them--thanks much--vangie…
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wonderful quotes--I love them--thanks much--vangie…
Tuesday
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vangie gave wallyw44 a hug 4:36pm
I love you both---thank you--Of what little I have--I DO have HOPE> hugssss-vangie…
November 16
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vangie updated their status 3:18pm
I am vangie-meebo won't let me be vangie, so I added a line!…
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Journal
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This Day
November 7, 2009 12:36am
Not asleep
Only not awake
This day I triggered
Again
It will happen over and over
because the world and its' peoples refuse to accept one another as …
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A weekend Devoid of Contact with the world
October 26, 2009 9:51am
No e-mails, phone calls (they're always "acquaintances who want someone to listen to them)
only my "son"-33 years old-suddenly here …
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A weekend Devoid of Contact with the world
October 26, 2009 9:51am
No e-mails, phone calls (they're always "acquaintances who want someone to listen to them)
only my "son"-33 years old-suddenly here …
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"To Feel"--a verb
October 24, 2009 4:32pm
A word in the english language-"feel".
Simply put, it is to be human.
All humans "feel" this way or that.
The verb takes …
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Ray of Sunshine
We love you too, Vangie! May God Bless you and smile upon you daily! Colleen and Wally
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Thanks
Thank you Vangie! Really, I can lasugh about aging! And yes, it is the little things that make life good...the smile on my grandson's face when we celebrate his birthday! God Bless you! Wally and Colleen
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Thanks
Thank you Vangie! Really, I can lasugh about aging! And yes, it is the little things that make life good...the smile on my grandson's face when we celebrate his birthday! God Bless you! Wally and Colleen
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Prayer
God Bless you Vangie! I know that almost all us Americans, and so many of us veterans, are praying. God will have the victory. In Christ! Wally and colleen
Hug
Looks like you could use a hig today... I hope this helps a little! HUGS
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Support Groups
Close Agoraphobia & Social Anxiety
Suffer PTSD--severe COPD,Anxiety,Depression
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
Close Anxiety
suffer severe anxiety
Treatments
- Breathing Exercises Somewhat Helpful
- Breathwork Somewhat Helpful
- BuSpar Somewhat Helpful
- Meditation Somewhat Helpful
- Positive Thinking Somewhat Helpful
- Remeron Somewhat Helpful
- Trazodone Not Working
- stopped it-made me dizzy all day
- Valium Somewhat Helpful
- Xanax Somewhat Helpful
- can barely function due to help from this med.
Open Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder
have severe PTSD r/t 9/11volunteered-also pas history of abuse
Treatments
- Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Somewhat Helpful
- Guided Imagery Somewhat Helpful
- Music Somewhat Helpful
- Paxil Not Working
- night horrors
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Rape Counseling Somewhat Helpful
- Reading Somewhat Helpful
- Remeron Considering
- Seroquel Not Working
- bad drug- on it for a year-no more--caused bad side effects
- Supportive Care Somewhat Helpful
- must have some sort-psychotherapist
- Talking Working / Worked
- venting-writing all help
- Topamax Working / Worked
