Stefunny's Journal

dear dad, I can't hang out with Cassie and Kelly, they're partying is the reason why they are still dependent upon mom and dad. You wouldn't bail me out and I wouldn't want you to. I think it would make some people and maybe you curious if you stepped outside yourself and listened to yourself. You are asking me why I didn't go out to a bar. have you been to any bars lately? Do you know what a cesspool they are for the scum of the earth? Do you know how overpriced drinks are? Do you know what alcohol does to the body? Do you know that we already have enough toxins in our blood from everything else? Do you know what kind of people are there? Do you know that is not a place where you meet new positive people? The only people there that are friendly are people that want something from you- to buy their drinks or to get some. I have learned that. You are ignorant ignorant ignorant. man. get a life. I want you to feel ashamed of yourself. But it seems like you already do. otherwise why would you let everyone else tell you what to do all the time. at the same time, i love you. my feelings towards you are explosive and volatile. i can't control you. trying to find the words to be assertive with you and protect myself. it seems like any conversation i would try to begin would immediately end. you always get so defensive. maybe i should have put you on the defensive. I don't care for bars. why don't you go out to the bar since you think they are so great? what is your problem? what are you trying to say? that I'm not a good member of the family. Why can't you just be happy and proud of me. why can't you think about my future.