lisaJC's Journal

hi, not sure how this works but here goes. my mum (64) has cll and untill tonight i have been burying my head in the sand about it . She has had it for approx 3  years and was in watch and wait until now. she has been unwell with infections for the last 8 weks or so and has been told to start chemo course tommorrow. I dont know how to deal with this and would appreciate someone s help as i feel awful and useless, anybody ,i think i need reassurance. havent read any literature deliberatly, as i just wanted it to go away, but it hasn't and so... what now, vry anxious...help.