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About Me
ddaybrat
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About Me
Laid off programmer analyst, live alone with cat & dog, divorced after 26 years of marriage, 3 kids - 5 grandkids, Believe God won't give me any more than I can handle, but like Mother Teresa, I wish He didn't trust me so much. Try to take one day at a time. I keep smiling and laughing to hide the pain and sadness. I'm too proud to ask friends and family for help when I need it. Many days, all I need is a hug and there's no one there to give me one.
Laid off programmer analyst, live alone with cat & dog, divorced after 26 years of marriage, 3 kids - 5 grandkids, Believe God won't give me any more than I can handle, but like Mother Teresa, I wish He didn't trust me so much. Try to take one day at a time. I keep smiling and laughing to hide the pain and sadness. I'm too proud to ask friends and family for help when I need it. Many days, all I need is a hug and there's no one there to give me one.
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Reading, traveling, learning about other cultures
Reading, traveling, learning about other cultures
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Close Breakups & Divorce
I'm divorced after 26 years of marriage. It's been 6 years and I still don't feel complete without a man in my life. I was with a guy for almost a year and we were going to get married. Thank God I realized he was a controller before I made the final step.
Treatments
- Forgiveness Working / Worked
- Worked with my divorce. I forgave my ex and his new wife. We have a fairly decent relationship now. I'd like to think we are friends, but I know that the old person is still hiding behind his new personna. I don't quite trust him.
- Love Not Working
- I keep looking for love in all the wrong places. I want a friend, a companion, a soulmate. I want to get married again, but I keep finding guys who are controllers. I guess I have an addiction to them. My ex was one and so was my father. At least I've learned how to recognize them.
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- I've been in therapy for about 5 years. It's helping, but it's a really slow process. I've made more progress in the last year than I did in the first 4 years.
Close HPV
I was diagnosed with HPV almost 2 years ago after an abnormal PAP smear. It seems like it's a never ending nightmare.
Treatments
- Colposcopy Somewhat Helpful
- Removed cells that were present at the time, but the HPV is still active
- Laser Surgery Somewhat Helpful
- Removed cells that were present at the time, but the HPV is still active
- Liquid Nitrogen Somewhat Helpful
- Removed cells that were present at the time, but the HPV is still active
Open Depression
Severe depression, unable to function normally, sleep a lot,
Treatments
- Effexor Working / Worked
- Take 3 - 75 mg tablets a day. It works most of the time, but I still have some pretty bad days
- Paxil Somewhat Helpful
- Was first anti-depressant I took. Switched to Effexor within 6 months
- Positive Thinking Not Working
- I try to think positively, but it makes me remember what life was like before depression. In the end, I struggle harder to stay out of that deep dark hole.
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Been in counseling for 5 years. Helps some, the last year has been really tough and counseling isn't working as well as I'd like it to
- Support from Friends & Family Somewhat Helpful
- Most have never experience depression so they don't understand that one can't always pull themselves out of a slump.
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