molly74's Journal

Here I am...a month later! LOL! I'm fine, just working as much as I can. It helps take my mind off of whatever it is that I am thinking about. I think it is a bad form of dealing with my anxiety because it's like stuffing it or ignoring it. I work, exercise and sleep! I have a doctor's appointment on Monday because I am coming up on the dreaded bad cycle. I can't go through what I went through the prior month.

Sometimes I think I'm totally stuck living like this. I am so fearful that my body will not be able to handle it anymore. But it's a mental disease. I technically have control over this if I could just stop the thinking to drive me into fear or flight. Sigh...maybe one day. :)

 I have a guy that I'm seeing and it has been nice. One bad problem...his age...he's 18! Oh, I know you girls are going to smack me and say snap out of it! LOL! I think it is a good relationship because there is no clinginess, no long term committment relationship. Amazingly, he's a great guy for his age, works and goes to college so with his schedule and mine, we see each other maybe twice a week.

2 weeks ago I was in a car accident and I almost thought my panic  attacks were knocked out of me because for a solid week I did not have one! I'm fine, my car needs some work which I have to do piece by piece due to my work schedule.

My mom sent Alpha a raincoat today. I'll have to put pictures up! Alpha hates the rain and we have been having a lot lately.

Love and miss you all!