Depressed
November 9, 2009 3:26pm
I'm so depressed I could eat my face. I think I'm treating people poorly so that I can justify my death. I used to think my …
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EmilysT
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About Me
EmilysT
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About Me
I'm having a hard time. I'm a single mom. I'm type one diabetic, I'm 25. I'm bullimic. I'm depressed. I'm a student. I'm impatient. I'm hard on myself. I'm tired. I'm scared. Exercise keeps me alive sometimes, especially swimming. I feel really lost.
I'm having a hard time. I'm a single mom. I'm type one diabetic, I'm 25. I'm bullimic. I'm depressed. I'm a student. I'm impatient. I'm hard on myself. I'm tired. I'm scared. Exercise keeps me alive sometimes, especially swimming. I feel really lost.
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Purging
September 25, 2009 6:36pm
I didn't purge yesterday, and I didn't even binge. I worked out ALOT though. And I ate meals. It felt good to eat because …
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Fasting Glucose(Diabetes)167Hemoglobin Aic(Diabetes)0 -
Support Groups
Close Diabetes Type 1
Treatments
- Insulin Pump Not Working
- I got really itchy at the site and I hated having the pump fall out of my bra ect. It was hard to exercise/swim. I didn't like being connected to something. The itching was insane.
- Lantus Working / Worked
- I take it daily. It's better than being connected to a pump.
- NovoLog Working / Worked
- I love the pens.
Close Depression
I can't handle it anymore. I'm overwhelmed, disappointed, unable to accept my life, unable to change my life, hard on myself... I'm tired. I feel like I'm just waiting to die.
Treatments
- Positive Thinking Somewhat Helpful
- I can usually exercise and it helps my mind to clear and let go of all the negative cycles.
- Writing Somewhat Helpful
- I've done this before. Unfortunately I don't think it's very safe to write down destructive thoughts because people have stolen my journals before and/or printed out my blogs to use against me in court, ect. But it can help to ease out of the negative self-talk. Maybe I will try it again.
Open Eating Disorders
Type: BulimiaI vomit at least once a day. I'm tired.
Open Single Parenting
I am a single parent of a 4 yr old girl.
Open Parenting Preschoolers (3-5)
My child is a bit out of control. She just won't listen to me.
Treatments
- Child Time-out Not Working
- Education (School) Somewhat Helpful
- They have the 'thinking pond.'
Open Loneliness
I'm really really lonely.
