Journal Entry for October 13, 2009
October 13, 2009 12:07am
Well im still awake. Its 2:54pm and sleep hasnt taken me yet.
Ive had an eventful day.
I spent the better part of my morning …
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MadameChaos
1:17am, November 3, 2009
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About Me
MadameChaos
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About Me
Thats a hard question to answer as I am so different day to day. I am incredibly passionate and artistic. I have trouble keeping friends. Im often described as odd or strange and a bit loopy which I dont mind. Will that do? I hope so
Thats a hard question to answer as I am so different day to day. I am incredibly passionate and artistic. I have trouble keeping friends. Im often described as odd or strange and a bit loopy which I dont mind. Will that do? I hope so
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Interests
I love music, film, obscure art and literature. If its offbeat or different I will usually like it. I like dining out but im nervous around people for fear of being touched. Im a self proclaimed Nerd.
I love music, film, obscure art and literature. If its offbeat or different I will usually like it. I
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Recent Activity
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2 hugs received, 1 hug given
Yesterday
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MadameChaos gave DziwnyJestTenSwiat a hug 4:15pm
Hey honey! How ya doin? Haha Lightning Ridge is in North West NSW. Its a -- hole, which is why no one…
November 12
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MadameChaos changed their mood to Bad 11:56pm
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MadameChaos posted a new photo 11:05pm
Friday the 13th November…
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MadameChaos wrote a discussion post in the Bipolar Disorder support group: Please Read 6:47pm
Howdy there love monkeys and beepy buddies. Sorry I havent been around. BIG CRAZY MOFO HUGS TO ALL MY…
November 7
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MadameChaos gave Benitro a hug 7:30pm
ABOUT --ING TIME DUUUDE! Im aware of how to spell your name, I was being silly, because I call you…
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I try to remember...
October 8, 2009 4:08pm
Genetic Emancipation
Years...It's been so many yearsResenting the yearsIn my heredity.Oh,I have hated and loved you.I have hidden behind you.But I …
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Journal Entry for October 6, 2009
October 6, 2009 2:17pm
Im petrified...
This house is haunted. It has to be. Or im delusional...
Fuck this shit.
What am i going to do???
Ive been …
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This is a title!
October 5, 2009 7:19am
Ok so i was feeling really really down so I made an executive decision to get my fat arse up and play on the Wii Fit. I did 43 mins of …
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Long time, no see sweetheart. Have you been okay? What are you up to tonight? I am running out to grocery store. Talk soon. Love ya!!!!!
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Hey hun, how you doing? I notice all the time you put new pics up but for some reason, never talk to you. I'm Sarah :) Where the heck is lightening ridge?!! I'm in Melbourne :P
Cheers dude
Sars xx 
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i think this is a great idea, thanks for bringing it to our attention. i have attached a pic just for the hell of it. feel free to use it if you do want to pass it on to the cause or for your own purposes. might make and interesting art piece.
http://farm3.static.flickr.com/278...
i also add this as i see you have a red face and thought it might bring a little colour into your day:
http://farm3.static.flickr.com/261...
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lolz no I'm not dead. :( Sorry I didn't get tha joke. but I get it now! What's new? How are u?
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HIieeee, Long time no see. I've been watching my Grandparent's house and they don't have internets. I also went hunting and have been doing a "project" at that place that made me their computer guy. So I've been a bit busy, but I'm back home now. How was your halloween, btw, my name is spelled BenjAmin. =D good try tho! :p Tell me how you are!
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Goals
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Support Groups
Close Bipolar Disorder
I was diagnosed with BP II about 3 years ago although i recognise now that I was showing syptoms from about 13ish. Ive had many ups and downs, i really dont get many level moments. To be honest im exhausted. But I keep wondering, is my creativity linked to my BP???
Treatments
- Caffeine Somewhat Helpful
- Keeps me awake when i have to function, tastes good and fills me with pretend energy. I love a good hot juppa java!
- Effexor Working / Worked
- Ive been on Effexor XR for approx 1 year now. Judging from the extreme depression im experiencing im thinking its not working, but the Pdocs wont change me in case I flip into Manic.
- Lithium Too Soon to Tell
- Im still in the teething stages with this treatment, but so far not so good. Im still experiencing both mania and depression.
- Seroquel Too Soon to Tell
- This gives me this nasty hangover the next day, like ive drunk a bottle of Jack Daniels or something. I dont think I like it. Boo Hiss
- Zoloft Not Working
- Seriously didnt work. PFFFFT! I was on the maximum dose and still wanting to throw myself onto something pointy.So my diagnonsense SHITE!
- Zyprexa Not Working
- I hated this treatment. It caused enormous weight gain which affected my self esteem resulting in a downward spiral.
Close Lactose Intolerance
Information, support and dietary ideas
Treatments
- Lactose-Free Diet Working / Worked
- So far so good. Although I still indulge in a little cheese every now and then.
Open Self-Injury
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- Rubber Bands Not Working
- DOES NOT HELP
- Talking Not Working
- Tattoos Working / Worked
- A fantastic treatment. I love my tattoos.
- Caffeine Somewhat Helpful
Open Huntington's Disease
my father has huntingtons disease and there is a possiblity that I also do.
Open Physical & Emotional Abuse
I have been physically and emotionally abused by several different people, mostly over the past three years. It just keeps getting worse. Ive been abused by best mates, friends, partners... I just shut myself off now, you dont get hurt when your alone.
Treatments
- Art Working / Worked
- I write short stories and general ramblings about my past experiences, it can help.
- Leave Working / Worked
- Usually I just run straight back into a similar situation. Im a magnet for it
- Music Working / Worked
- Music always helps. It soothes the savage beast
- Psychotherapy Not Working
- Pffft
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- I dont talk But i do vent my issues through my writing.
Open Anxiety
Treatments
- Breathing Exercises Somewhat Helpful
- Positive Thinking Somewhat Helpful
- St. John\'s Wort Working / Worked
- Zoloft Not Working
- Lame I was on it till I maxed out the dosage and i was still anxious as hell.
