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AprilStar 
I got my marks back today for the mid-term I wrote 2 weeks ago. This was the one I thought I did ok on when I wrote it. I got 55%. I can't believe it. When I saw my mark I started having a panic attack. I don't know what to do. The test I was sure I failed I somehow managed to get 74% on though. I don't understand this at all. I've never gotten this low a mark in my life before, and it scares me. Does this prove just hos much my life is falling apart? I don't know, this class was after my appointment with my counselor this morning, and I was feeling a bit emotional already. But right now I feel like I could go into another attack at any minute, and I'm supposed to have an appointment with my psychiatrist in an hour. I need to calm down, but I just can't. I know this isn't the end of the world that I got one bad mark, but it's just one more thing on top of a pile that I already can't carry. It's just too much.
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April, maybe you are worrying too much about the marks. Try to relax a bit. 55 is still passing, and if you study a little more you can probably get that up much higher. Marks are just numbers and they can change. You didn't seem too worried about the test you thought you failed and you got a 74. Try not to worry so much - just do your best.
I am also subject to panic attacks, so whenever I feel one coming on at an important time, I just take a deep breath - reassure myself that God is with me and go for it. Plunge right in and He will help you.
In the mean time, don't worry about the low mark, be proud about passing.
Take care.
MommaBear
BGPG
55% is not passing.
AprilStar
It is not judgement day, either. You are a good person, and you have been having a rough patch on the road of happy destiny. You know that you are not alone,and help is available. Plus you have the amazing advantage of your youth. I say this from the amazing advantage of being almost 61. Been a lot of there, done a lot of that. Low marks once affected me the same way this one is affecting you. I have four Failures recorded in my official college transcript, no degree, and a very good life in spite of it all. So share your difficulties, just as you are doing, and have a little patience. Things always change!
BobCJ