Hello everyone out there. I am very grateful for DS and all of you here. A little about my recent history: I have suffered through a lot of adversity, loneliness (due to circumstances), although I have had great times, too, and definitely know what it's like to be truly happy. I currently battle high anxiety, panic attacks, and major depression, which I've had for the past five years. I have also struggled with anorexia and binge-eating, but prefer not to pay attention to that lately because I know the root of those problems is depression/anxiety. I have an eating disorder because I am triggered by deep-rooted depression. My goal is to get out of the depression before tending to my eating habits, although I do try my hardest to follow a diet and exercise plan daily. Some weeks are better than others, and anyone who struggles with food issues/weightloss can also relate to that. The trick is not falling off the wagon entirely and knowing that you can always get right back on the horse. Nothing is ever completely lost. I tell myself that I am in a perfect position for success. That helps me stick to my goals. I have had many breaking points, but always seem to get back on my feet and resurface even stronger than I was before. I believe everyone should listen to their inner needs and not let society or what others tell you to do interfere with your well-being. I'm here to get healthy support from others, and give the same in return.
Hello everyone out there. I am very grateful for DS and all of you here. A little about my recent history: I have suffered through a lot of adversity, loneliness (due to circumstances), although I have had great times, too, and definitely know what it's like to be truly happy. I currently battle high anxiety, panic attacks, and major depression, which I've had for the past five years. I have also struggled with anorexia and binge-eating, but prefer not to pay attention to that lately because I know
I would love to love life, whatever that entails.
I would love to love life, whatever that entails.
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TheMermaid wrote a journal entry: it all comes down to this 10:42am
Nothing is tragic, it just hurts. Maybe my life isn't so bad, I acknowledge that often. But it pains…
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Oh my gosh, your post on my journal made me cry because you seriously relate to everything I am feeling…
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I am so sorry you're feeling bored and such.. I know everyone experiences it differently, but can definitely…
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Life. Definitely a movie.…
TheMermaid wrote a journal entry: Plagued by doubt 3:55pm
I am so worried I won't ever measure up to what he wants... What he needs. My mind lingered around the…
November 19, 2009 10:42am
Nothing is tragic, it just hurts. Maybe my life isn't so bad, I acknowledge that often. But it pains me. It brings me to my knees begging for someone …
November 9, 2009 3:55pm
I am so worried I won't ever measure up to what he wants... What he needs. My mind lingered around the same sad thoughts, when all of a sudden, this …
November 7, 2009 8:52am
There's nothing worse than this feeling of sinking into a disgusting black hole. I am sorry I haven't been to this website recently, I have been …
October 27, 2009 8:21am
I'm scared, really scared. I starved myself until I was practically a skeleton for as long as I possibly could without someone intervening. It …
October 20, 2009 11:26am
Hello friends, I just wanted to apologize if I have not been great about staying in touch. If you have messaged me or hugged me in the past few days …
you are a wonderful person, hope your day brightens.
Just a quick hug to see how you are. Hope all is well with you.
I am glad that you could relate to what I said. I just know as a person I am lousy with relationships. As a BP'er I am even more lousy with them and have a tendency to isolate big time and feel like it's all my fault even when it's not. Take it slow, don't forget to breathe and be as supportive as you can...like the REM song say...every body hurts, everybody hurts, sometimes. HUGS!
I was sorry to hear about the overly expensive therapist. I am glad you have a supportive boyfriend. I am feeling a bit out of sorts myself this morning. I am dealing with boredom and a bit of fear. I have had thoughts of drinking that trouble me. For me to drink is to have complete destruction of my life. I hope you are doing ok!
welcome and i hope u have a great weekend. i am here anytime u need me
I have struggled with massive panic attacks and generalized anxiety for several months.
While I do have the ability to come out of it, I have been in and out of depressions for about five years now. I have gone to very low points, where I completely lose interest in all life has to offer, feel worthless and hopeless. It has affected my appetite as well. Somehow, I'm still here and hopefully getting stronger by the day.
I am a very social person who is stuck in a shitty situation. I've seen the negative effects of isolation and I hate them. Trying to get back on track socially and meet new people.. have an open mind as well. Seeking support and to give support.
Food controls my happinness, sadness, energy levels, motivation, intellect, and um, let's see what else.. Oh, yeah, my will to live. Had anorexia, bad binge eating disorder, chronic dieting, chronic exercising.
