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adreannasmommy 
8:37pm Wednesday
I took the second test today and that too said I was pregnant. So Now I have to wait until my boyfriend gets home at 3 my time, which is only like 15 minutes from now. But we have to go and get a third pregnancy test done at the doctor's so they can make a proof of pregnancy and estimated due date so I can get back on Medicaid. It is way too early to be scared, but I hope and pray that this baby doesnt die too. If I have two dead babies I will definately take that as a hint that I'm not fit to be a mother. I do have a question though. How do you stop yourself from being so stressed out about the fears and worries, since stress isnt good for baby?
I'm sorry if this journal upsets anyone. I keep getting scared that I'm going to hurt someone by talking about it. I'm thinking of joining a new support group along with this one, but I dont want to have to meet a whole new set of people. I think I'm mostly scared, of what those parents might say if they find out how long its been since Adreanna has passed away. They might start judging me and telling me they dont think I waited long enough. That I made a huge herrible mistake that I have to live with now..
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I'm excited for you! Adreanna has sent you a special baby. Let us know what the doctor says.
wandersjewell
I think it is impossible to not stress over it, especially after what you have gone through. My only advice is to pray... faith over fear!
As far as I am concerned, you are always welcome here. And anyone who thinks you have gotten pregnant too soon after losing Adreanna has never lost a baby. As hard as it is to do, just keep reminding yourself that they don't understand, and never will. Good luck with your appointment.
brandylee82
you are always welcome here... when one of us gets pregnant it gives me hope that maybe I can too someday... anyone else though I just want to slap- I also don't have a problem hearing about or looking at sids siblings either :) I don't think it's too soon... you are the only one who can judge that- my hubby and I are not trying not to get pregnant right now ( I say it like that so I don't stress myself out because I'm not)
michelle4600
you cant worry what everyone going to say you should feel BLESS....... people at job my family and my friends is already asking me when im going to have another one. You go head and have a good pregnancy .I will be prayin for you
MsTigga
It's not time to worry about what others will think and I guarantee people here won't judge you. We'll all be here with you and Adreanna will be there with this baby too!!
colinmichaelsmom
There is a sub group here called pregnacy and parenting after sids that you can join to ask questions. Just do your best with the stress. Since youknow stress is bad for the baby do what ever you can to destress. Of coarse you will still have some but there is always some stress in a pregnancy. Have faith hon it will all work out. Big congrats on your pregnancy.
LaylaF
I honestly wouldnt worry about what other people will think. People will think things no matter what, hopefully your family and friends will be supportive. And though I havent been in this group very long I can imagine that everyone here is so excited for you. I know I am! You have been blessed!
Roriesmom
Congrats sweetie!! DOn't worry about that other people think, it's your decision to make. The stress is going to be a factor, that's a given just with what we have been thru, I had loads of it with my rainbow baby pregnancy, you just have to have faith and try your best to stay calm and positive, let your doctor know your fears and concerns, my doctor gave me extra attention because he knew my past and he knew I was terrified. Congrats again sweetie!! Another rainbow baby...yay!!!
arihanna
If people get upset then they need to choose not to read what you write, plain and simple.
Stress is part of the deal.....but the key is to keep telling yourself that you are going to be the mama to this baby that you were to Adreanna....you gave her your very best and you will do it with this baby too!!!!! You can't let stress engulf you....many of us now have been down this raod and you are not alone....my rainbow baby is about to turn one and each month is a small victory and once that first birthday hits you see the finish line coming.....we all lived with stress and fears....its part of who we are now but you know what, it's also about choices.... you can look fear in the face and say screw off to it or you can embrace it and know its going to come and go...know you are not by yourself!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am thrilled another rainbow baby is on the way....congrats!!! Maybe it's too soon, maybe not, the way I see it is that your angel sent this baby with her blessing....
NickNicksmommykitkat