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About Me

I have struggled with depression off and on for about 8 yrs, I was also very :"hyper" sever, start in high school. As I got older my hyperness would be pointed out to me as abnormal, and would interfere with friend ships, relationships, work. I have on numerous occasions been asked if I was on drugs. ( I have never done drugs) I started feeling unaccepted and embarrassed, and no matter how I tried to be calm, I just found it impossible. then this last year I went through and extremely stressful event . Then I noticed that when I tried to sleep my mind became a freeway, since then I have five + of these episodes in the last 9 mo. along with feelings of severe depression. I finally was so distraught and felt so helpless I admitted myself into the hospital, the kept me for 6 days and DX me with bipolar mixed severe. I was given lamictal and lexapro witch helped tremendously, the problem was they sent me home with a 30 day supply and could not get me an appt with a psychiatrist for 60 days, so I went without medication for 1 mo and after 2 wks without meds iI felt myself slipping deeper into depression, i could not function at all. I also was not sleeping, in fact a week before my appt I did not sleep at all!!! on the 7th day I finally fell asleep a 4:30 am and woke up at 7:30 am. I finally had an appt with a Dr., who also Dx me with the same diagnosis as my previous one. None of thes Dr's ever explained what bipolar mixed was, I finally did my own research, and I can not believe that my diagnosis is real. I finally see light, I will never go off my meds, I feel much more in control of my life, I do not have feelings of hopelessness, or that I have no purpose in life, and why am I alive. Thank god for the intranet, and all the information I have found.

I have struggled with depression off and on for about 8 yrs, I was also very :"hyper" sever, start in high school. As I got older my hyperness would be pointed out to me as abnormal, and would interfere with friend ships, relationships, work. I have on numerous occasions been asked if I was on drugs. ( I have never done drugs) I started feeling unaccepted and embarrassed, and no matter how I tried to be calm, I just found it impossible. then this last year I went through and extremely stressful event