To make a nearly 7 year relationship story short, after 5 years of dating (living together) he decided he wanted to separate in November 2007. It was the HARDEST time of my life but nearly 6 months later I had finally moved on. One year after we separated, December 2008, we decide to give it another try. He moved back in and low and behold 8 months later, August 2009, he tells me he no longer is in love with me and is unhappy and is sorry for making this mistake. BASTARD! Now I am forced to go through this AGAIN, after I was nearly healed, actually dating again and even enjoying life. He came back just to destroy my soul again. The only difference this time around is that I know I will get over him. I guess apart of me remained guarded but I hurt anyway. This time around I have decided to take a differt approach in dealing with this heartbreak. Instead of partying and drinking my pain away as I did the first time around, I have decided to focus on me and find out why I am not happy with myself and what I can do to change that. I worry all the time that he will meet someone and start a whole new life with someone else but maybe, just maybe, if I can start the no contact rule I will never know. So hard to be with someone so long and then just stop cold turkey :( Single at 35 is so scary for me. I feel like I will never meet anyone, let alone unmarried and possibly without children. I wonder all the time if that is why I stood so long with him, out of fear of being alone...hmmmmm.
To make a nearly 7 year relationship story short, after 5 years of dating (living together) he decided he wanted to separate in November 2007. It was the HARDEST time of my life but nearly 6 months later I had finally moved on. One year after we separated, December 2008, we decide to give it another try. He moved back in and low and behold 8 months later, August 2009, he tells me he no longer is in love with me and is unhappy and is sorry for making this mistake. BASTARD! Now I am forced to go through
October 13, 2009 4:43pm
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October 9, 2009 10:06am
Upon advice from others I decided to go the gym to workout. Supposedly this is a good way to feel better. WRONG! I came out of there feeling dirty, …
October 8, 2009 10:59am
Everyone keeps saying no contact is the only way to go so if thats so true then why is the desire to call him stronger than it ever was or am I only …
October 6, 2009 9:38am
So I went to see Pink in concert last night and while she was AMAZING, several of her songs brought me to tears. The lyrics were so powerful and its …
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This weekend I realized a few things, 1) I dont think I can handle attending weddings right now, 2) open bar with strangers is not that fun and 3) I …
Hey Girl i hope you are doing OK.
hope all is well.still waiting on the info
hey girl sent me your AIM screen name so i can sign up for aim cause i think am done with this site.hope to hear from you soon.
Hey girl i dont have instant messages,but i am going to sign up today you have to tell me your screen name.
I hope you are doing ok. Keep your head held high. You are such a strong woman. I wish you all the best.
I always think I am suffering from depression when things are not going well. The reality is I am not and should not take that lightly since there are so many others that do have it. I only hope I can provide support to those that actually do need it.
