PrettyInPearls's Journal

Im getting over being sick, will go back to school tomorrow and I lost a few lbs which of course I am thrilled with even though no one else is.

To answer Missy's question-my 1st love was my one and only. Hes coming to visit the weekend after next. We fight b/c we are alike in too many ways. Both children of alcoholics. Both only children of divorced parents. both way too stubborn. We fight b/c we know how to push each others buttons so much. With everyone else we both have dated we didnt know what got to them but with each other we know exactly what to say and when to say it.

When we dated he was with me during the roughest phase of my life. I was cutting, suicidal, not eating and abusing laxatives, dad was abusive, etc. i met him on a cruise something like 9 days after my first rape. we hooked up and i later broke down on him. he comforted me and he knows all my secrets.

we will see how it goes when hes coming. i want to keep losing to look good for him. he doesn't like me too thin but i dont want him touching me-cuddling,etc unless i am.

i haven't seen him since april

i was reading ophelia speaks earlier and she was describing anorexia from a quote she heard "like being thirsty when its raining"

just thought id share