PrettyInPearls's Journal

Its been a few days sine Ive posted. I have started going back to counseling at the YWCA. It has already helped tremendously. I want to go to the SA group this week. I still havent worked up the courage to go to the ED support group. I think I am too focused on my weight being normal to feel like I dont belong there. I dont feel sick enough. I am at a healthy weight but I have been restricting one day and b/p the next. Its kinda one way and then the other. 

I  broke up with the ex that I started dating again. We arent speaking. He asked what I was going to do and I said I was going to visit David for halloween (my first love, yadda yadda, the one guy everyone wants me to stop going back to b/c we fight so much) I said yes I probably am. He txted me "ooooo david. smooche smooche. kiss.kiss. your looovvverrrr. oooo"

I told him he was acting like an as*. He started chewing me out saying F you and atleast his job is respectable. I told him it WAS but he got fired as a firefighter and now he works in a lumber yard yet he keeps telling ppl hes a firefighter.

Unfortunately I probably wont get to see him for halloween. My car is in the shop and I am sick in bed. Argh I hate this.  I was doing to be a dominatrix for Halloween but I cant exactly answer the door to trick-or-treaters with a whip in my hand....or can I to scare them off? lol j/k  I would never do it but I would mess with my mom about it.

I might get a chance to intern with a local burlesque troup. Ive always wanted to do something like that b/c I have that classic beauty type look. Ive never been a Marilyn. More of an Audrey or an Elizabeth. Im meeting with the lady next Wed to talk about it. I would be helping out for awhile with the shows until I felt ready to audition. Fingers crossed