Little Girl Lost
November 21, 2009 4:04pm
Abandon from emotions
Lost some where inside
No feelings of Love
Speaking her name
She holds on to her heart
because its breaking in two
Allowing no …
survial101 
4:51pm, November 5, 2009
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About Me
survial101
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About Me
I am 50 years old, and have been dealing with Bipolar for almost 22 years, I am a rapid cycler, there has been very few medications that have been able to stablize me for very long, the longest period in my life has been about 3 months, I am in therapy once a week and have been most of the time, that seems to be the only way I can keep things under control, I have experienced every aspect of Bipolar, I use to be a cutter, I have taken 3 overdoeses, I have had ECT, I have been in treatment 23 times, most recent june 9th-august 14th 2009, I have overcome a prescription addition by going to NA 3 years, my life has been a hell of a ride on a rollercoaster, but I'm here and I am a survivor !!!
I am 50 years old, and have been dealing with Bipolar for almost 22 years, I am a rapid cycler, there has been very few medications that have been able to stablize me for very long, the longest period in my life has been about 3 months, I am in therapy once a week and have been most of the time, that seems to be the only way I can keep things under control, I have experienced every aspect of Bipolar, I use to be a cutter, I have taken 3 overdoeses, I have had ECT, I have been in treatment 23 times,
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Interests
Church activities, working with childern, spending time with friends, sitting on my back porch drinking coffee staring at the beautiful mountains, spending time with soul mate
Church activities, working with childern, spending time with friends, sitting on my back porch drinking
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Recent Activity
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8 journal comments, 7 hugs received, 6 journal posts, 4 hugs given, 1 photo upload
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survial101 changed their mood to OK 8:05pm
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survial101 gave BPstorm a thanks 7:58pm
thank you for letting me know it was not me, I quess I have a tendecy to be a little insecure, it is…
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survial101 commented on their journal entry Little Girl Lost 2:10pm
Just working on some childhood issues and realizing what few menmories I have of my childhood were full…
Saturday
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survial101 wrote a journal entry: Little Girl Lost 4:04pm
Abandon from emotionsLost some where insideNo feelings of LoveSpeaking her nameShe holds on to her heartbecause…
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survial101 wrote a journal entry: Making a self-harm survival kit 12:18am
I am in the process of making a self-harm survival kit, it will be a small box that holds steps for me…
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Making a self-harm survival kit
November 21, 2009 12:18am
I am in the process of making a self-harm survival kit, it will be a small box that holds steps for me to take before I self - harm, I'm …
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A Song
November 19, 2009 12:59am
The Lord knows I can't live on the mountain, so He picked out a valley for me,
He leads me beside still waters some where in the valley below
He …
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MIND GAMES
November 18, 2009 6:30pm
My minds tells me things
thats not even there
makes me look at things
that can't even compare,
to the way I once was
my mind tells me I can't
ever …
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SELF --HARM
November 18, 2009 6:22pm
I mean no harm to
anyone eles.
But would you please let
me harm my self
It brings me such release
And makes my life
more at ease
It is my safty net
when all …
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UR Welcome
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Hug
Thank you for responding to my journal. It most definitely is not you, it's nobody in particular at all. It just is what it is.
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Get Well Soon!
It's rather splendid to think of all those great men and women who appear to have presented symptoms that allow us to describe them as bipolar. Whether it's Hemingway, Van Gogh... Robert Schumann has been mentioned... Virginia Woolf, Sylvia Plath... some of them with rather grim ends.
Stephen Fry
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here ahug for ya ang
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Goals
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Support Groups
Close Bipolar Disorder
Treatments
- Abilify Working / Worked
- 5 mg.
- Depakote Working / Worked
- 1500 mg. works better than any other drug combine with a low dose of abilify
- Elavil Working / Worked
- used in a small dose for sleep it is working fairly well,PDOC changed it from 10mg. to 50mg.
- Group Therapy Working / Worked
- I go to a tuesday night after care from a hospital that I was at, since I qraduated from IOP, it will always be available to me, as long as I am willing to work the program
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Started going back twiced a week, this works better for me, because of the way I seem to cycle pretty fast, it helps me deal with my emotions & feelings as they are for ever changing, helps me deal with the every day stresses of life, and life as a Bipolar person.
