Hands
November 23, 2009 2:13pm
I am looking at a picture of Bear with his arm around me, and I see his hands. How I miss those hands! His hands were not spectacular by …
nkodi
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About Me
nkodi
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About Me
I retired after teaching for 32 years and was anxiously awaiting the life promised to us by so many: travel, golf, relaxation, family, grandkids etc.. My husband, Bear, had retired a year earlier and was waiting for me so we could start the best time of our life together . However, life can be so cruel and he was diagnosed with lung cancer the day after Christmas 2008 and subsequently passed away on July 25, 2009. My husband Bear was a wonderful teacher, athletic director, and assistant high school principal. He was loved by many but none of them loved him like I did. It is so hard to understand why this happened. HIs months of battling lung cancer were horrific but I am glad he no longer has to fight. It has been 4 months without him and none of them have been easy.
I retired after teaching for 32 years and was anxiously awaiting the life promised to us by so many: travel, golf, relaxation, family, grandkids etc.. My husband, Bear, had retired a year earlier and was waiting for me so we could start the best time of our life together . However, life can be so cruel and he was diagnosed with lung cancer the day after Christmas 2008 and subsequently passed away on July 25, 2009. My husband Bear was a wonderful teacher, athletic director, and assistant high school
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Interests
My interests are running, biking, golfing, swimming at the beach, skiing, and traveling. I am trying to keep active but the pain is there regardless. Life can be so unfair.
My interests are running, biking, golfing, swimming at the beach, skiing, and traveling. I am trying
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7 journal comments, 5 hugs received, 3 hugs given, 2 journal posts
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Thanks and right back to you!…
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nkodi gave Jaynine a hug 3:14pm
Thank you Janine....I hope you have a nice Thanksgiving all the way in SA. Nancy…
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nkodi commented on KipB’s journal entry Busiest travel day of the year..... 10:29am
Kip, I am sure that many people with be thinking of both you and Marti tomorrow as you get through this…
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nkodi commented on Sandy712’s journal entry Solid White Tuna Fish 2:18pm
Hey Sandy...I am definitely with you on this one. Everyone is telling me how fortunate I was to have…
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Thankful but....
November 22, 2009 10:26pm
Sitting here watching the Eagles on TV, I began to think about Thanksgiving. I know that there is so much to be thankful for. My sons …
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A piece of paper
November 13, 2009 12:11pm
Who knew that an innocent piece of paper could bring on such sadness? This week I had the opportunity to fill out two very different forms for …
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The Dreaded Closet
November 7, 2009 5:00pm
Since Bear's death in July, I have tackled many new jobs. I have learned how to start the lawn tractor and maneuver it around the …
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A Patriotic Bear
November 3, 2009 1:21pm
Bear was a high school history teacher before his jobs as athletic director and then assistant principal. His last five years of education were …
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Hugbook
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Nancy: Thinking of you and hoping you have a very Happy Thanksgiving.
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Hello Nancy-Thinking of you over this difficult time..Hugs Janine
Little Love
Thank you Lord Jesus! I have rec'd many, many generous donations for Soldiers at Cindi's Thanksgiving Day to feed the Troops. We are planning to feed the Troops again at Christmas at a friend's church that is near Tinker Air Force Base. Wishing all of my DS frienda a fabulous, healthy, and Happy Thanksgiving!! Giant hugs from OKC!! Cindi
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Flower
Just wanted to drop off some flowers to brighten your day and say hi...hugs Janine
I’m With You
I wish I could delude myself for even a few minutes that I'm being selfless in all this. I'm not an earth mother, self-sacrificing person and I'm not always doing that well. I also feel tremendously guilty for leaving him home all day long day after day. That's why I don't usually go anywhere evenings or weekends. But when he's having a bad day and I offer to stay home, HE pushes me to go to work. This country and our health insurance needs! I have to work, I can't lose this job, we couldn't pay for even one month of all his treatment if I didn't have the health insurance. I wish we were older and retired (and had had that many more years together ...)
Thanks again for all of your kind words. YOU are the one who is the hero, getting through one day after another without him ... My mind can't even focus on that thought - that reality, I should say - it shies away and I think about other things. I can't imagine my world without him in it.
I keep setting goals for us, trying to give him reasons to keep going farther and farther ahead of us. Right now the biggest and closest goal is his son graduating from college this coming May. Only 6 more months; he HAS to make it till then. (I hope.)
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My husband passed about on July 25th, 2009 after a 7 month courageous fight with lung cancer and I am so sad.
Close Widows & Widowers
My husband passed about on July 25th, 2009 after a 7 month courageous fight with lung cancer and I am so sad.
