What would really happen?
November 10, 2009 4:16am
What would really happen if I were able to extract the creator of my madness? What if I could pluck it and all of its spiny, suctioned tentacles out …
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alizarine1963
4:11pm November 15
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About Me
alizarine1963
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About Me
Married to the same guy for 16 years, poor thing. We have a five year old daughter who acts like I did when I was a child. We are so much alike it is scary! I am presently job hunting after 8 years as an Instructional Assistant and am working on Master's degree. I am not experiencing much in the line of finishing anything right now. God is important in my life and I trust in Him even when I feel nothing, desire nothing sitting in the depths of my depression or in the clouds of mania. He walks with me and inspite of what I am He still loves me and calls me His Beloved.
Married to the same guy for 16 years, poor thing. We have a five year old daughter who acts like I did when I was a child. We are so much alike it is scary! I am presently job hunting after 8 years as an Instructional Assistant and am working on Master's degree. I am not experiencing much in the line of finishing anything right now. God is important in my life and I trust in Him even when I feel nothing, desire nothing sitting in the depths of my depression or in the clouds of mania. He walks with
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Interests
Reading, journaling and completing the second draft of my novel, spending time with my child and hubby, writing, taking walks, crafts and cooking
Reading, journaling and completing the second draft of my novel, spending time with my child and hubby,
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Recent Activity
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6 hugs received, 1 hug given
November 15
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alizarine1963 updated their status 4:11pm
Ok, I am trying to muster smile...I guess it's fake it until you make it?…
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alizarine1963 changed their mood to Bad 4:10pm
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alizarine1963 changed their mood to OK 4:10pm
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alizarine1963 gave katsupsidedown a hug 4:06pm
May the Lord bless you and your family today! Thank you for your kindnesses, hugs and prayers. I am still…
November 14
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alizarine1963 gave Tygerlily a hug 7:21pm
Hi T,if I am putting pressure on you to hang with me, I am so sorry. If you need me to back off, I will…
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Reflections of a Beeper Pt 6
November 9, 2009 1:03pm
I want off this carousel the call life. Though I fear dying , I do not know where to turn at this point in life. I have no passion, my desire is …
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Reflections of a Beeper Pt 5
November 9, 2009 12:57pm
Who am I to blame for how I am? I could rip myself apart bit by bit trying to take away the agony which has become my life. I cannot blame those who …
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Reflections of a Beeper Pt 4
November 9, 2009 12:27pm
Many have walked this road and none as I know have come back. Yet in this knowing the unknowing travel not often tred. There are no companions on …
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Reflections of Beeper Pt 3
November 8, 2009 7:11pm
Am I any different than those before me who were thrown into the asylum of hell? Am I any different than those who slit their wrists and tried to …
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You can find me on FB; I think I am through here. Hugs! Tracey
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the way you speak of god is inspiring to me. :) X
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Hi I finally got my son to sign up for this site: if you think I'm bipolar you should see him. I'm sure that I could have been like him but I was always to messed up to really tell, you might pop by and say hi to him. He really needs some good people around him, thats why I picked you love z
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Hi I finally got my son to sign up for this site: if you think I'm bipolar you should see him. I'm sure that I could have been like him but I was always to messed up to really tell, you might pop by and say hi to him. He really needs some good people around him, thats why I picked you love z
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Prayer
wow, you must be so tired hun...I hope she gets well soon...I remember so well when my kids were younger and got sick like that...it is hard on you as the mother, I remember that too...hang in there hun...sounds like you do have a good husband...hugs, and smiles, kathy
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Support Groups
Close Bipolar Disorder
I believe I have been bipolar since I was about 9 or 10 but finally received a dx three years ago.
Treatments
- Lithium Not Working
- Abilify Not Working
- Ativan Not Working
- Celexa Not Working
- Cymbalta Not Working
- Effexor Working / Worked
- 150 mg 1x a day
- Group Therapy Somewhat Helpful
- Klonopin Not Working
- Lamictal Working / Worked
- 150 mg 1x day
- Lexapro Not Working
- Lithium Not Working
- Paxil Not Working
- Prozac Not Working
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Wellbutrin Working / Worked
- 100 mg 2x a day
- Writing Working / Worked
- Xanax Working / Worked
- 0.5 mg 3x day as needed
- Zoloft Not Working
Close Food Addiction
I need to get my weight under control again!
Treatments
- Overeaters Anonymous (OA) Working / Worked
Open Miscarriage
I was wondering if others feel loss now and again after many years?
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- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
Open Sexual Abuse
I want to deal with some feelings that I have about some experiences I had when I was a teen that I would call sexual abuse and how it continues to affect my life today.
Treatments
Open Motherless Children
I want to share feelings around feeling as though I didn't have a moma when I was a child.
Treatments
- Writing Working / Worked
