Darkhole23

Close Depression

I’m a 23 yr old guy living and working for the military in Virginia. Since 2003 when my father past away from lung cancer. I have been going through life with no since of direction and sort of a depression because my father was a great man in my eyes but the one thing that I never heard from him was that he was proud of me. Since he has past everyone in my family life has change at first for the worst but they turned it around and seem very happy. For me it’s different I just can’t get my head to stop thinking about my past when I enjoyed life and knew who I wanted to be. For the last 3 and half years I have been off and on again sleeping pills so that I can stop thinking about everything. I have tried going to get help on military base and it help a little but two things happen when I do that witch is the person that was help end up transfers out to a new military base and when I inform my command they see me in a new light and I feel that they walk around egg shell when there near me. Since I was station State side for the first time since I join the military I got me a dog to help me out for not being alone witch it helps out a little but I still fill like crap inside. I just can’t stop thinking about where I lived and my life before my father past away. If you know of anything or anyone that can help me out and don’t cost much money it would be help.