sarahw's Journal

Well I havent written since Novemeber of 2007.  I guess I just didnt know what to say.  the holidays were really tough for all of us.  then we had Andys would be 23rd B-day on January 29th.  So it seemed the whole stretch from November to february were really hard.  The second yeear of losing my brother brings the reality that he is really not coming back.  But it also brings me time to reflect on the blessing in my life and how I have grown in this past yaer.  My parents are struggling still, and we all just work on living day to day without Andy.  But the signs we have been given by him and our love and faith in God and heaven has kept us going.  I know it will continue to grow. 

I have also been blessed with a future little boy!  I am just about 5 months pregnant and absolutely thrilled!  My husband is more excited than I have ever seen him.  His name will be Maximus Andrew.  We will call him Max.  The Andrew of course my little brothers name. It means "Greatest Warrior".  And if you knew Andy you would know that described him! 

My cat Jack died from eating an easter lily.  In case you dont know (which I didnt), they are poisonous to cats and cause renal failure.  It broke my heart.  He was there for me always, and my favorite pet.  He was like my child.  I know he is a cat, but I think it was hard too because it brought back those feelings of loss.  Like coming home and him not being there.  (Different but realtable)

So all in all its been an exciting, tough, bitterweet few months.  I continue to grow in faith and love for God.  I look for the best in each day, and cherish what I have today.  I am blessed in so many ways, and I know that Andy is continuing to watch over us and help us continue on this life journey until we see him again.