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sarahw 
Tomorrow my family leaves for Key Largo. It will be a very nice relaxing time, but a very bittersweet and sad time as well. November 25th is One Year since Andy died. I cannot believe it honestly. It seems this has been the longest year of my life, yet it seems like yesterday he was here. I have learned much about myself in this past year, and I have found so much goodness in people I never even took the time to know. Our family has been blessed with so much love and support and they are still supporting us. I know that we are here on this earth to love one another, and help each other. That is God's plan for us. I know that I will meet Andy again one day in heaven, but I am not finished here. It will be a long time before I see him again, but I hold him close to my heart everyday. I miss him more than words can say. My parents are realy struggling now, and that just adds to my grief. I feel I have had such a burden on my shoulders beacuse I cannot be happy unless my parents are. I have learned that I cannot make them feel better. We are all on our own journeys. I can only pray for them and love them. My dad has grown older in this past year, and I can see the sadness in his eyes always. They have changed so much, yet he continues to live life to the fullest. I guess he got that form ANdy. I am grateful to God for givingme 21 beautiful years with Andrew, and I will cherish them forever. Whoever said that a year is a good timeline for healing is sadly mistaken. Yes, I have healed. I no longer have that excruciating pain that I did in the beginning, I just have a constant hole in my heart. And sometimes it aches worse than others. I want to fis everyone, and I cant. I can just ask GOd and Andy to keep guiding us and loving us, and healing us. Thank you all for your love and support. I will return on the 25th of November. Please keep my family in your hearts and prayers. Say a little prayers to my little red headed brother for me!
Love, Sarah
Love, Sarah
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I'm so proud of you Sarah. You've been through a tough year without Andy and look at you! There's so much love and hope in your heart, it makes me smile and makes me feel so grateful for everything in my life. I've learned the loss of someone close to you will never get easier, but you do learn so much about yourself and others. As for your parents, I'm sure you have made them feel a lot better, just by being there and loving them. I know it's super hard on parents because no parent should ever bury their child, but your whole family is strong and God and Andy are watching over you and wishing the best for everyone.
I will be thinking of you and your family and will say a prayer every night.
loss4wrds
Yes, we are forever changed by the death of a loved one, especially when it's a death out of time. It was encouraging to read of your growth and healing. Thank you for sharing.
VictoriaJoy