Today, is sad not for me. I think my dog is dying his breating is hard, he will not really eat and only takes small drinks. I will take him to the vet today. He is old, 11. I have never been through this. I don't want to see my daughters hurt anymore. Things have not been going well these past few months, my daughters was engaged and was to be married 6 months ago a week before the wedding he cheated on her, she called it all off and found out she was pregnant. So she is alone, she lives in our guest house. We will have a new baby in Nov. The Father left the state and will not be involved. Then there is me, I still do not know the extent of the cancer I have, its not about poor me its about all the people I will hurt. I don't want to be a burden. So I need to shpe up and be stronger. Times like this is when I wish I was alone





