lilly80's Journal

well i went a bit crazy on wendsday,took a load of tabs,beer,selfharmed and totally lost the plot.i had so much anger inside and it all come out.went 2 see an old friend 2 catch up cuz could not handle being at home carnt trust anyone i feel.got home and trashed the house which i sort of remember doing,but was 2 medicated 2 remember it all.my partner told me i collapsed on the landing floor and he had to dial 999.i feel ashamed cuz my 10 and 6 year old girls had 2 see all this,and the youngest thought i was dead.its not good.im having home support from crisis team for a few days,cuz i have been reffered 2 see a phyciatrist.