lilly80's Journal

hi ppl had not 2 bad of a day yesterday,there was a few hicups but nothing i couldnt handle.today iv woke with a massive headache and feel really shacky.i have my 2 girls at home with me as can not afford 2 send them 2 school at the moment.my partner has gone off 2 uni for the day,so its just me and the girls.iv got 2 struggle on and fight my urges of self harm and taking tablets for there sake 2 day.my partner asked me last nite why do i tell everyone on here my life story,and instead of telling u that i should talk 2 him,i told him i carnt cuz deep down i know that he dont understand and tries 2 turn a blind eye 2 it all.i should really go see my docter but iv moved house so my docters r to far to get 2 without money,and also its friday so i will b struggling the whole weekend again.just great wen u need 2 reach out 2 ppl u carnt,im sick of this stupid life.