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About Me
TwoWolves
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About Me
I'm (apparently) a man of steel, my brain is (apparently) a computer and my heart is (apparently) a block of unmeltable ice. I'm like Frankenstein's Creature looking for acceptance among humans. I'm like the wooden puppet Pinocchio dreaming of becoming a real boy, I'm like a Vulcan following the path of pure logic and reason without embracing emotions. I live in my Fortress of Solitude, in a fortress looking towards a desert and waiting for an enemy that is never going to attack. So why living here? So why not looking for compassion and love?
I'm (apparently) a man of steel, my brain is (apparently) a computer and my heart is (apparently) a block of unmeltable ice. I'm like Frankenstein's Creature looking for acceptance among humans. I'm like the wooden puppet Pinocchio dreaming of becoming a real boy, I'm like a Vulcan following the path of pure logic and reason without embracing emotions. I live in my Fortress of Solitude, in a fortress looking towards a desert and waiting for an enemy that is never going to attack. So why living here?
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bonfires, autumn's colors, lighthouses, taking naps in the wilderness, smiles, country shirts, wide open spaces, thunderstorms, sunrises and sunsets, early morning mist, snowy days, smell of the rain, walking along the seafront, full moon and starry skies, rainbows, sun rays through trees and clouds, road trips, benches in parks, steam locomotives, cultures, railroads, cherry flowers, pine trees, landscapes, Impressionism, Bohemianism, Romanticism, Beat generation, Hippie subculture, Harlem Renaissance, Transcendentalism, drawings, paintings, musical instruments, movies, nonviolence, Native Americans, Hudson River School, philosophy, renewable energy, sustainable development, science fiction, psychology, ethical living, architecture, intentional communities, cuisines, wildlife.
bonfires, autumn's colors, lighthouses, taking naps in the wilderness, smiles, country shirts, wide open
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Hey stranger!
Just checkin' in! Haven't talked to you in quite some time and I hope you are doing well!!
I'll send you the recipe for my thai dish! I hope you are prepared! :)
Alicia
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sorry i went offline, my internet went funny.
hopefully chat soon!
& take care of yourself!!
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Hey just wanted to say hi and see how things r going.
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havent spoken to you in a while.
you okay?
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Support Groups
Close Agoraphobia & Social Anxiety
Basically since I was 3 years old.
Close Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionI began suffering from depression at the age of 15, but I started therapy 5 years later.
Treatments
- Cymbalta Working / Worked
- No side effects.
- Effexor Somewhat Helpful
- Nausea + delayed ejaculation.
- Luvox Not Working
- Drunk sensation.
- Positive Thinking Not Working
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- The best therapy.
- Support from Friends & Family Somewhat Helpful
- Zoloft Somewhat Helpful
- Hands trembling.
Open Insomnia
I began to have sleep problems at 13 along with anxiety. At 17 I had a really bad insomnia problem. Now it is just a seasonal disorder.
Open Loneliness
I've spent most of my life in solitude. I've never had a date and I have contradictory feelings about intimate relationships. Sometimes I desire love and intimacy, while sometimes I don't like being touched or observed and I hate those who show interest in me. I have very few friends and all of them know little or nothing about my psychological situation.
Open Personality Disorders
Type: Avoidant Personality DisorderI do not fit well in any particular category, however according to my last diagnosis I have a Personality Disorder with avoidant, paranoid, obsessive and social phobic features.
Open Self-Injury
I've been properly a self-injurer when I was 17. I've always been kinda masochist until approximately the age of 23 when I understood the concept of self-love. My self-injury problem involved punching, hitting, scratching, self-biting, burning, starving, freezing and sleep deprivation.
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- It was the worst part to accept and to overcome.
Open Alcoholism
When I was 23 I spent some weeks as an alcoholic.
Treatments
- Willpower Working / Worked
Open Paranoia
I don't trust people, I always suspect people, I see unexistent threats in good actions, in smiles, etc.
Open Phobia
Agoraphobia, social phobia, enochlophobia ( fear of large crowds), gelotophobia (fear of being laughed at), haptephobia (fear of being touched), fear of driving.
Open Migraine Headaches
Headaches make me crazy sometimes. They are just a consequence of heavy thinking, paranoia, obsessions and meds.
Open Prescription Drug Abuse
Between 22 and 24: painkillers, antidepressants, benzos, at times mixed with alcohol just to wash the pain away. I guess I've been close to death more than once.
Open GERD & Heartburn
At 24 i've got this problem because of a sliding hiatal hernia. It is really painful, but somehow it helped me to get back to my normal weight.
Treatments
- Antacids Working / Worked
- Avoid Certain Foods / Chemicals Working / Worked
- Domperidone Working / Worked
Open Abstinence & Celibacy
Most guys out there are just looking for the right girl. I've always been looking for the "right me". I feel like I've been ready for a relationship for a year, at least I've been thinking it as acceptable, I fell in love for the first time last September. So I've just got the "right me" and the "right girl". Being in love is awesome.
Open Hiatal Hernia
I have been diagnosed with a Sliding Hiatal Hernia in October 2008.
Treatments
- Antacids Working / Worked
Open College Stress
Living with PD and MDD makes everything harder. College is stressful because I haven't been able to accomplish my goals on time.
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- Support from Friends & Family Somewhat Helpful
Open Hyperhidrosis
Sometimes my hands perspire too much. That makes me feel uncomfortable. Not sure if that is hyperhidrosis since it doesn't happen all the time. It might be related to anxiety.
Open Smoking Addiction & Recovery
I've been a smoker for almost a year at the age of 23. I started because I wanted to find a sort of socially accepted drug with no side effects instead of prescribed antidepressants and antipsychotics. I hated the smell and I had a strong will, so it was quite easy to stop. Now I hate smoking more than before because I know what being a smoker means.
Treatments
- Willpower Working / Worked
Open Diets & Weight Maintenance
Due to the weight gain caused by the drugs I've been taking, I've been overweight for 3 years and for few days I reached a mild form of obesity. I'm almost back to my normal weight, since i've lost 40 lbs in one year and a half .
Treatments
- Eating Healthier Foods Working / Worked
- Eat Less Working / Worked
