Journal

U may have wondered where I have been for month. Truth is I have being staying with a friend after yet again another suicide attempt. I am now back living where I live and am really not doing good. I cant help feeling the way I do. Bursting into tears for no reason whatsoever. I just want to feel wanted for a change, needed and secure and safe. Is that too much to ask? Really.....

Got out of the wrong side of bed today. Been snapping at everyone for no reasons. I havn't got the energy or the patcience to do this today.. I JUST WANT EVERYTHING TO BE OVER, WHY ARE WE HERE ANYWAY, WE WORK HARD, PAY TAXES AND WHAT FOR? HORRIBLE PEOPLE TO SCREW YOU OVER, GET YOU TO TRUST THEM WHILE THEY HOLD YOU DOWN AND LET OTHER PEOPLE RAPE YOU WHY DO PEOPLE DO THAT SHIT TO OTHER PEOPLE. ITS NOT RIGHT. I WELCOME DEATH AT ANYTIME COME AND TAKE ME YOU BASTARD. HELL CANT BE ANY WORSE THAN THIS...

Again!! Another fantastic day. At work though!! Boss is really impressed, got a pay rise everythings going well! Can't wait for tomorrow to come!!