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Melody2009 
I am very tired right now. Seems like things are getting worse but better all at the same time. My daughter has not cut herself again. That is very good, she is doing well with her counsling ang the counsler says she is doing good. Taught her this tecnique with sharpie markers to use when she gets the urge to cut. Each color reprenrts a diffrent emotion. This way she can help identiffy what it is she is feeling and helps with the urge to cut.
The worse part is my sister has been diagnosed with cancer, It is stage 4. She had cancer 16 years ago. Had surgery went through radiation therapy and went into remission. Last summer they discovered she had it again in almost the same area as before. Had surgery again except this time she lost her left lung. It was not lung cancer but the tumor had started growing into the lung tissue. She went through 6 months of chemo and the 8 weeks of radiation. She had a cat scan last May and it looked clear told her she was in remission. Then last month she got sick. After about a million tests, scans and finally a bioposy we know the cancer is back. She has a mass by her spleen and stomach. It is eroding away her ribs. It is inoperable. Doctors say because of all the damage from the other surgeries and radiation that she would not survive the surgery. They are going to try to treat it. She will have 9 weeks of chemo then they will do another scan to see if the mass has shrunk. Her prognosis is poor. It is just not fair. She has a 5 year old daughter and is a single mom. It is not fair when this hapeens to anyone. I am afraid this will be to much for my daughter to handle and she will start cutting again. She is talking to her counsler about it though so that is good. I am just feeling a little lost right now. I am thankful though to have my friends on here. It has been a good place to come and let go all the crap I usually keep bottled up inside me. Hugs to all my friends hope you are all doing ok.
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I am so sorry about your sister. Life can be so unfair. My husband's sister was born on his birthday 2 years after him and she was a single mom of a son. She battled breast cancer and died about 4 years ago leaving a 9 year old son who at that time my husband and I were suppose to raise. But my heart kept telling me I can't raise this boy and now I guess it was a good thing because he would have gotten attached to my husband like a father figure( his dad does not want him) just to have him die 2 years later. The trauma that boy would have faced, my husband's younger sister took him and he is doing really good. I think he understands things better now. He knows just how special his mother was he loves her so much. Sometimes he gets mad when he does not get his way and says some very bad things or is so disrespectful to his Aunt and when I hear about it I tell him "What would your mother think of you treating her sister like that? Would she be happy now? And he will apologize and then he understands why he did not get his way. It is a daily struggle she faces and one she is better suited for then I am. Cancer is a horrible thing for anyone to face. I pray each day my daughter still has to undergo lung surgery for tumors in her lung that they do not spread any further. She has had 4 brain surgeries and one lung surgery where they removed 34 tumors, she is handicapped and can only walk with crutches, married to an idiot with no money, and they have a baby girl that she will never be able to carry or walk. Anyway sorry to ramble my prayers are with you and your sister. Take care
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I am so sorry about your sister. It truly is not fair.I will keep all of you in my prayers. I hope your daughter will be able to get through this crisis with out cutting. I am sure you are very tired. All of this is so much to hold on your shoulders. Take care -Hugs-
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