Alley2

Close Breakups & Divorce

Recently had my heart broken. Committed to a man whom I still love but it does not appear we will be togther any longer or that he feels the same about me.I got the letter left on the kitchen table while I was at work and he was driving to relocate himself five states away. I feel abandoned by my best friend and partner, defiled, betrayed, manipulated, confused and, at the moment, like a deer in headlights. I am not sure if I can move but I want to run, somewhere.. not sure to where.

Treatments

Forgiveness Too Soon to Tell

Analyzing but not sure if I am doing it right. I finally got mad but then resolved to begging him back again... then I get mad at myself and him again. It doesn't make sense to be mad at someone just because they do not love you the same way you love them. Sounds right. But, when you agree to commitment it's hard to accept. We have been together for 10 months and he asked me to marry him.I was ready. The motions are like a wave:calm as it goes away but repeatably crashes back, sometimes harder.

Leave Somewhat Helpful

It was divine providence... I went to the mountains the week after he left and there was a Bible conference that I was not aware going on at same time. I got to attend for the week. It was awesome. God has angels here.

Pets Somewhat Helpful

I have four dogs that I excercise with every morning. this helps distract me for a second.

Reading Working / Worked

Reading the Bible each day. Trying to read a chapter a day. This is extremely helpful but also can be very emotional as read to reflectively apply God's Word. VERY HELPFUL.

Support from Friends & Family Not Working

Other than my children, it is bot helpful to rely on my family for support. They are too close and they always support me...I am not as strong a person as they wish me to be or expect me to be. I am sad... they say good riddence and I am better off.Sometimes I think they like me to be alone but I do realize this is an unfair preception...They just do not realize how I feel. My parents have been belssed to be together for 50+years.

Talking Not Working

I do not have anyone to talk to. I am hoping this chat room can help.

Time Not Working

Trying desperately to realize time heals all wounds or at least makes them manageable. I am in the state right now that is boarder disabling and I am obsessingly analyzing me and on him. Makes me so mad...He is not even thinking about me...He is happy. I know it...just hard to accept it. I guess I am being spoiled but that is so cliche in that it is just cold to ask marriage and then within 4 days leave a "dear john" note. something is not right in Denmark..