Depressed2064

About Me

I don't know where to begin. My life as I know it is useless. I have dealt with chronic pain for most of my life. Even as a child I was the one out of 3 who got sick. Sugery after surgery since divorced 14 years ago. I had break down after ex threw away all of my meds. when diagnosed with Bi Polar. After breakdown, I've never fully recovered. I never know when the cloud creeps up on me. Recently I was diagnosed after 18 months of doctors. I have Reflex Dystrophy. To late in the game to go in remission. Success if I was treated early on before limbs became involved. I truly want to enjoy the sunshine, children laughing, taking a walk. Just simple things. I can't get a grip on these, even though I am on antidepressants and nerve meds. Most say I've been the successful one in the family and the smart one. I feel I have been cursed with everything while everyone else lives on happily

I don't know where to begin. My life as I know it is useless. I have dealt with chronic pain for most of my life. Even as a child I was the one out of 3 who got sick. Sugery after surgery since divorced 14 years ago. I had break down after ex threw away all of my meds. when diagnosed with Bi Polar. After breakdown, I've never fully recovered. I never know when the cloud creeps up on me. Recently I was diagnosed after 18 months of doctors. I have Reflex Dystrophy. To late in the game to go in remission.