DancerinaDaydream's Journal

There is a friend in my life that is ruining me. No matter how much I tell myself and others that I'll be strong by never speaking to this person again, it always happens that I fall back upon what I try to promise myself. I know it would be better for me, though hard at first. All I want is for this person to realize how hard I've tried, how much I've effort I've put in, how much heart I've given, but I don't think you can ever force someone to have feelings that they don't have. So I struggle daily to be able to go through the motions that is life. This person is carefree and living. And here I am waiting for something to change that never will. It's sickening to see what I let happen to myself. I always thought I was a strong, wise person, but am I really? I don't even have the strength to get rid of this person, even though I know after time it'd be a lot easier on my aching heart. Why do I allow people to do this to me?