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About Me
kazzawahya
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About Me
I am me. there is no one else like me an i am happy about that. my life has been shapped by my secrete that torments me every day, by the people i have met and have also lost and left behind and of course by my family. i wont take no crap from no one. i have my reasons for being who i am, i've seen things an experienced things i should not of at this age. my life span is very short. i do not have a future as such. for me, i am lucky to see the things i do. for all anyone knows i wont ever see tomorrow, so each day to me is a blessing, an adventure to take hold an ride, to experience. i have strange things that i obsess about as well as strange fears. but that is me. once a friend to me always a friend to me, no matter how little or how often we talk. my spirit is my personality, we are not seperate things but we are one. an very much a like. i do not believe in god an never will, i lost my faith a long time ago an i refuse to go back. i am not one to make others believe in what i believe in, i think its awesome others still believe in god but i, i do not. so please not push it on me. i do not believe in anything, this is my life an i like it that way. its predictable. an i know what happens in it. an what to expect. you should also know that once you hurt me in anyway i deem hurtable you loose my trust and i start to shut down on you. its near impossible to get it an you have to work at it to get it but its damn easy to loose it. many of my friends have lost it an they still have not been able to get it back after many years. i do leave people in my past were they belong. if i think you belong in my past you will know this is generally only followed if you have hurt me. i have many issues but i live my life because its all i have. i dont care what others think of me, i do what i want. after all its my life and no one elses. there is however only one who has control over my life other then me. he is special an i am very confused with it but he has control as well. currently he is not in my life due to a monster of a friend. no more is needed to say. if you need to know whats happening with me then simply read my journal, i tend to journal certain things not everything but certain things. just enough to know the basics really. an there is were you will find what is going on. dont expect me to tell because i dont. not unless i can truely trust you an that my friend is something thats near impossible to get but it is achievable. i have only three people who have achieved it an they are the only ones who will ever know about everything in my life. i have strange ways in doing things an again this is me. hmm getting long this part is, lol. one more things, i have really bad spelling and grammer an this is just a sorry for that, lol.
I am me. there is no one else like me an i am happy about that. my life has been shapped by my secrete that torments me every day, by the people i have met and have also lost and left behind and of course by my family. i wont take no crap from no one. i have my reasons for being who i am, i've seen things an experienced things i should not of at this age. my life span is very short. i do not have a future as such. for me, i am lucky to see the things i do. for all anyone knows i wont ever see tomorrow,
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Interests
him, photos, animals, completing the promise, swimming, Dr Who, twilight an such things similar, chocolate, my dog clair, body language, an other random things.
him, photos, animals, completing the promise, swimming, Dr Who, twilight an such things similar, chocolate,
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Journal
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Hugbook
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Hey there. I hope you have a great day. If you need someone to talk to, I am always a message away. Sorry been distant for a few days, but I promise to be around more. I am doing better, and I'll try and be a better friend. Hope you are well. Love from Alyxx
Chocolate
Thank you so much for the chocolate! Here's some for you too, because even on the crapiest of days chocolate can at least help a little! =) I hope that you have a good day! HUGS!!!
Chocolate
oh and hug number 2 where are you going to be all of tommorow? need someone to keep me sane. damien has hurt his knee really bad an might now be going into work 2morow. damn doctors for steatling you away from me hehe. nah just joking. hope your ok.
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Flower
hey crazy person, arent u meant to be asleep or something? lol
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Chocolate
how am i meant to fix what i have done or meant to have done or say sorry when i dont even know what i have done or meant to have done, im not apoligising for something i dont even know i did. so please talk to me
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Photos
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Support Groups
Close Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome
i was diagnosed at 14 an half with both hyper an vascular an on both extremes.
Close Epilepsy & Seizures
i had epilepsy till i was 17, supposing out grew it although i have an odd attack if on rides at a fair or seeing flashy lights.
Treatments
Open Irritable Bowel Syndrome (IBS)
due to the EDS
Open Physical & Emotional Abuse
i was abused from the time i started reschool an still am getting a lot of emotional an physical abuse.
Open Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS)
we knew i had a problem after i competed in movember with my dad an took 3rd prize,so we got it check when i was 14/15ish
Open Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder
got diagnosed at 17 due to the rapes an bullying an emotional an physical abuse
Treatments
- Art Working / Worked
- Music Working / Worked
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Rape Counseling Working / Worked
- Seroquel Working / Worked
Open Pulmonary Hypertension
due to EDS
Open Diabetes Type 1
i'm actually pre-diabetic how ever i have episodes, we found this out when i was unconcious due to my blood sugar being at a mear 1.
Open Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) Depressioni developed depression when i was 6 years old.
Treatments
- Meditation Working / Worked
- Positive Thinking Working / Worked
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Seroquel Working / Worked
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- Writing Working / Worked
Open Chronic Fatigue Syndrome
Due to EDS
Open Bullying
i was bullied at the tender age of 5 an i am still bullied now several long years later an new country
Open Breast Cancer
i have a very strong history of this in my family, its never missed a generation. all my other cousins have been tested an have came back neg,i have just gotten tested for the gene...
Open Bipolar Disorder
i was diagnosed with this at 15 being manic/depressive. i will go through a manic episode before plummiting to a severe depression which leads to a 2 to 3 week stunt in hospital.
Treatments
Open Arthritis
due to EDS, i have it in my jaw, back, right shoulder, left wrist, all 10 fingers, both hips, left knee an ankle an all ten toes.
Treatments
- Pain Management Clinic Too Soon to Tell
Open Anxiety
due to the rapes, bullying an emotional an physical abuse the last 16 years an still carrying on today.
Treatments
- Breathing Exercises Working / Worked
- Meditation Working / Worked
- Positive Thinking Working / Worked
Open Rape
i was raped at the ages of 4, 6,7, 8, 9, 14 to 16 then 19 to the present
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Rape Counseling Working / Worked
Open Phobia
i have a huge fear of public transport of any kind an phones which i cant talk on due to the phobia.
Open Schizophrenia
i was told i had schizophrenia when i was 15 after hearing a voice an i still hear this voice now but its stronger because i've been told to stop my meds for 3 months -__-
Treatments
Open Families & Friends Affected By Suicide
one of my best friends killed himself last year 2008. i'll always miss him and i love him very much an wont ever forget that call during school.
Treatments
- Patience Working / Worked
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- sometimes all you need is to talk to someone who'll listen an challange your beliefs
- Talking Working / Worked
- Writing Working / Worked
Open Self-Injury
i only ever self injure myself when i go in to one of my manic depressive episode from the bipolar.
Treatments
- Outpatient Treatment Program Working / Worked
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
Open Scoliosis
have scoliosis from EDS due to poor bone, cartalige an soft tissue an legimant structure.
Treatments
- Brace Not Working
- EDS does nothing to help the actual help thus the brace has not worked, only made the pain worse. swear its getting worse as doc has said it has but he has said he can not help me. so am now just putting up with the pain an not bothering with the brace since it does nothing.
Open Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD)
my brother has OCD. he is currently not getting any treatment as he believes the doctors are wrong *rolls eyes*
Open Obesity
my mum is obese due to a medical condition, an i would like to help support her.
Treatments
- Physical Exercise Not Working
- mum is unable to do any exercise due to her ankle an knees an frozen hip
- Weight Watchers Not Working
- never helped mum in any way
Open Fatty Liver Disease
to understand it better. my mum an her sister have it.
Open Asperger Syndrome
one of my high school besties has this.
Open Heart Failure
i have an enlarged heart valve which is only being monitared at the moment as well as a weakening heart due to the primary condition of vascular ehlars-danlos syndrome
Open Sports Injuries
i severely tore my pec muscle in my right shoulder while swimming, after 8 years it has not healed. i have done other injuries all of which relates to swimming an the eds
Treatments
- Physical Therapy Not Working
- never worked for me as it just aggravated the injuries more and worsened it.
- Surgery, Knee Replacement Considering
- although its a very highly unlikely aspect at the moment
- Swimming Not Working
- the cause of my problems, lol.
Open Hypothyroidism
i dont have it but my mummy adoes an i'd love to understand it more so i can understand what she is going through
Treatments
- Carbimazole Somewhat Helpful
- with her ever changing levels it does not always work. shes on other meds which i cant name nor remember.
Open Other Heart Problems
Type: Mitral Valve Prolapsei have MVP due to my EDS. my mum has heart murmurs all the time an i have no idea how to help her.
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UNCENSORED BipolarBears 18 and over ONLY!!
Pet lovers
Triggers Panic Attacks And Flashbacks
Suicide and Self Injury Survivors
Child Abuse Survivors
Free to be me
Learning Disabilities LD
Rape Survivors
post traumatic stress
Surviver Patients of Treatment Centers Hosptials
Dog Lovers Group
Doctor Who lovers rejoice!!
Perfectly Unperfect People
Crazy Side of Normal
Dont Give Up
The offical Twilight group
msn users
Mitral Valve Prolapse Syndrome
No More Hearing Voices
The Worlds a Stage..
Pets helping us get through hard times
Recurring Dreams
Dreams
Learning Disabled People with Emotional Problems
The Art Of Resilience
