BrassplayHer's Journal

I feel like I have reversed back to a person who was drug addicted and not giving a fuck. Today I stayed home from school for no good reason. I mean sure, I have a killer headache, having killer palpitations, and I think I ripped a tendon in my forearm. All these things and yet these haven't stopped me before.  I am evern listening to screamo songs that I used to listen to give me comfort. For some reeason I thought that I had moverd on from listening to these songs. I even feel like I am detoxing, yet I have been sober for 10 months now. Whats wrong with me? I feel as if though the past is demanding to be heard again and now another part of me is dying. I just cut myself for no reason. I didn't enjoy but I didn't hate it. . God help me