Journal Entry for October 28, 2009
October 28, 2009 9:25am
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Goal End Date is Oct 1, 09 51 days ago.
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101 in 1001
September 1, 2009 8:40pm
The Mission:Complete 101 preset tasks in a period of 1001 days.Start: Tuesday, Sept. 1, 2009End: Tuesday, May 29, 2012The Criteria:Tasks must be …
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Hugbook
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and yes more photos would be good
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Hug
I think you ought to have a goal of hugging a geezer from the Southern USA..just an idea
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don't worry..be happy
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Hey Steph great to hear from you, im hanging in there too, just uni and life in general. living each day one by one. Hope you are well, thinking of you too and know im only a message away......
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Its been too long Steph, how have you been? well I hope......
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Support Groups
Close Depression
: Clinical (Major) DepressionI have been depressed, off and on, since 2006.
Treatments
- Celexa Not Working
- Discontinued - increased suicidal ideation and increased SI.
- Effexor Not Working
- Discontinued - destroyed my appetite and sex drive and did not make me feel any better.
- Positive Thinking Not Working
- It's hard to try to be optimistic when your mind won't allow you to be. I try when things get particularly bad, but I usually just end up becoming angry with myself.
- Prozac Not Working
- Discontinued - increased suicidal ideation and increased SI.
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- I see my psychologist at least once every month. She has been my psych off and on for at least the past seven years, so she knows me really well by now. I also see a psychiatrist, who is very direct with all of his comments and doesn't waste any time. It's much less personal but he knows what he's doing.
- Support from Friends & Family Somewhat Helpful
- My boyfriend is my greatest support right now. The family tries to understand but they have a hard time... coming from a broken home doesn't help too much because my parents try to pin everything on each other.
- Trazodone Somewhat Helpful
- I am only on 50mg to help me sleep. Some nights it still takes a long time to fall asleep and I still have nightmares more than I would like to.
- Wellbutrin Somewhat Helpful
- 150mg 2x daily. It's starting to make me feel a bit better, but my ears ring all the time and I become easily anxious. It brought my sex drive back with a vengeance though, so it all balances out.
- Writing Somewhat Helpful
- Blogging is a really great way to get all of my emotions out there. My blog is private so only a few people can read it, and most are those who I have never met IRL so I can still retain some secrecy.
Close Self-Injury
I am trying to be able to cope without turning to self-harm. Some days are easier than others.
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- I can talk to my psychologist without fear of being judged. That helps immensely.
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- I find it very overwhelming when I feel the need to talk to somebody about how I am feeling. I usually vaguely tell my boyfriend what is going on, then hang out with him until I feel safe.
- Tattoos Somewhat Helpful
- Pain that breeds art seems more constructive to me than pain that leaves scars.
Open Body Modification
I love tattoos and piercings, and would appreciate insight from other members.
Open Fitness Goals
Type: Improve overall fitnessI'm looking to gain weight the healthy way.
Open Plastic Surgery
Considering plastic surgery.
Open Loneliness
sjma hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Alcoholism
I never would have classified myself as an alcoholic. After several blackouts and embarrassing stories, coupled with an intense urge to drink whenever I try to cut back, there very well could be a problem. I'm not out of control, but I do struggle sometimes.
Open Physical & Emotional Abuse
I'm finally starting to come to terms with a lot of shit that happened in my past. Once I face it I can start to move past it.
Treatments
- Forgiveness Not Working
- Leave Working / Worked
- I broke off all communication with my mother for two years because things got so bad. I was thirteen at the time.
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Talking Working / Worked
Open Children Of Divorced Parents
After the divorce, my mother ruined my relationship with my father and stepmother by threatening to kill both me and herself when I mentioned liking my stepmum. Nice.
Open Eating Disorders
Don't really need a description here.
Open Panic Attacks
They went away for a couple of years but I have them now when I'm feeling suicidal.
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
