Join Now
welshkiwi1 
The loneliness is crushing me. If I died right now, it would be days before anyone wondered where I was. I know I have a few friends, but they have busy lives. I sit at home alone every night and most weekends with nothing and no-one to take my mind off the fact that Im alone. At weekends, I can go the whole time without seeing anyone. I know I should make an effort, but that’s what it is, an effort and when I feel like this I just don’t want to go anywhere or see anyone. I hate that I feel this way, I hate that I feel sorry for myself, but just don’t know what to do or where to turn. Here I sit, in tears again. Going out is hard, everywhere are people in couples or with families…and me. I really don’t know how much longer I can do this. My only family in this whole part of the world is my daughter, and much as i adore her, she has no idea how i feel. Im broke, Im lonely and im feeling desperate.
UPDATED GOALS
not gamble for a month
Progress 0%
Encouragements: 0
Add your support
Comments
At 12 Step meetings I found a way that I could meet some new people, make some new friends, build some new healthy relationships.........and I got a bonus out of it too.......I learned how to do something about the addictions that had dragged me down into the dumps in the first place.
Meetings usually only last for a couple hours......but it gets me outside, gives me something to look forward to, lets me interact with other people.........when I was feeling alone, beaten down, desperate, hopeless, I went to a meeting......it helped me.
I think it might help you too. Maybe give it a try? A friend once told me, "Nothing changes if nothing changes."------Change something. You might be amazed by the result.
eastwester
I happened to read your journal from a few days ago -it sounded like me when I went into crisis mode - so depressed I could hardly get off of the couch! I do think I know how you feel and when I was down there I never thought I could feel good again. But please take hope - you can come out of this - and you are the only one that can do it... Take just one baby step out . . .like Eastwester said - you may be surprised at the result... you are so worth it!! Please don't give up - remember you are very special and deserve a great life - you can have it.
Smokeygirl
smokeygirl