CupOfTea696's Journal

First of all I want to say sorry for yesterday. I know I promised a few people I would switch to mobile, but I couldn't. You'll see why if you carry on reading..

I felt really bad yesterday without a reason, and yesterday evening my parents started nagging when I didn't shut down the computer immediately when they asked. That wasn't my fault becuz the synchronizing of my iPod went stuck and it took a really long time before it actually was synchronized. They both got rlly angry and in the end my dad just turned of the electricity.

My mum was watching me all the time after what happened, she was in my room a very long time and I just wanted her to stop nagging and get out, she finally did. I knew she was worried and I knew she knew I was totally upset, so I turned on my iPod and listened to my music till like 01.20am and then I turned on the light as a test. I was right, she was still wacthing me and she came into my room. She didn't leave for another hour. I just wanted her to leave me alone, I was so angry with her. She was talking to me but I have no idea what she said. I after some time I just turned on my iPod again so I wouldnt hear her voice anymore.

So she finally left and then I decided to go to bed. I knew she had to go to work in the morning, so I cutted this morning. Quite badly.

Sorry it took my such I while to get here, I know I could have posted this this morning, but I couldnt talk about it just yet. I've been frustrated and annoyed all day. I can't stop trembling, I still am. I just feel so bad. Why do I feel so bad? All the time.