Journal Entry for August 24, 2009
August 24, 2009 10:16pm
i go back to school tomorrow. it sucks. i am afraid to go back. my day went pretty good today until i checked my messages on …
ashbutterfly
11:42am, August 22, 2009
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ashbutterfly
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About Me
where do i start? i am bipolar. i self injure. i have an eating disorder. i have trouble with anxiety. i am afriad of everything. i have had asthma all my life. i have facial tics. i am also extremely shy. my family sucks. my mom is a drug addict/alcoholic and shes bipolar. my dad was over in iraq for awhile and came back in 2007. he hasnt been the same since. i have one older sister but she lives 2 hours away and we dont talk much.
where do i start? i am bipolar. i self injure. i have an eating disorder. i have trouble with anxiety. i am afriad of everything. i have had asthma all my life. i have facial tics. i am also extremely shy. my family sucks. my mom is a drug addict/alcoholic and shes bipolar. my dad was over in iraq for awhile and came back in 2007. he hasnt been the same since. i have one older sister but she lives 2 hours away and we dont talk much.
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psychology, writing stories and poetry, my pets, movies, gymnastics, swimming, dancing, drawing, photography and music.
psychology, writing stories and poetry, my pets, movies, gymnastics, swimming, dancing, drawing, photography
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Journal Entry for August 21, 2009
August 21, 2009 3:48am
i dont know how i am feeling right now. i have mixed emotions. wednseday my mom did something stupid. i dont want to talk …
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just venting.
August 19, 2009 6:14pm
ok today was the first day of school. it started off good until this girl comes up to me and shoves me and calls me a retard and …
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Journal Entry for August 15, 2009
August 15, 2009 2:48am
im so tired right now. thursday my parents and i took a very long drive to the airport and then a plane ride to our new home to see …
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Close Self-Injury
i started hurting myself when i was around 8. from there on up it gradually gotten worse then one night when i was 15 i went to far and i cut to deep. at that time things were out of control. i was cutting 3 to 5 times a day. things are under control now and i dont hurt myself as often i have almost stopped. I still get the urge and when i do i usually give in. i just havent found what works for me yet.
Treatments
- Group Therapy Not Working
- i tried it but it just wasnt for me. it only made me want to cut more.
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- therapy helps some. i had 2 really good therapists but i moved so i have to find a new one. i hope i can find a good one again.
- Red Marker Somewhat Helpful
- this just doesnt really work for me.
- Rubber Bands Not Working
- im not allowed to snap myself with rubber bands because my family thinks its silly and stupid. so i gave up on the whole thing.
- Squeezing Ice Not Working
- it works until my hand goes numb but then that just makes me want to...i wont go into details.
- Talking Too Soon to Tell
- it would help if i had someone to talk to.
Close Asthma
Type: Childhood Asthmai have had asthma all my life. its still not under control like the doctors want it to be. ive been hospitalized many times because of my asthma and a few of those times i needed a breathing tube. it sucks but im getting used to it.
Treatments
- Advair Not Working
- i take it twice a day and it doesnt seem to work. i actually think its making me worse.
- Albuterol Somewhat Helpful
- sometimes it helps and other times its useless.
- Breathing Exercises Too Soon to Tell
- Singulair Working / Worked
- it helps with my allergies.
Open Bipolar Disorder - Teen
i was diagnosed when i was 15. i guess its bipolar 1 that i have.
Treatments
Open Eating Disorders
Type: Bulimiatheres really no need to explain.
Treatments
- Group Therapy Considering
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- Support from Friends & Family Considering
