I'm a ballroom dance instructor, animal lover and pacifist! I read almost anything, see the good in everyone and love deeply. I tend to overthink in all situations and sometimes worry too much. I want children more than anything in this life, and I'm afraid that that's one dream that will never come true.
I'm a ballroom dance instructor, animal lover and pacifist! I read almost anything, see the good in everyone and love deeply. I tend to overthink in all situations and sometimes worry too much. I want children more than anything in this life, and I'm afraid that that's one dream that will never come true.
RubyLove wrote a journal entry: In your dreams!!! 2:43pm
So, back in June, at 2 something in the morining, I wrote down this ridiculous, impossible, outlandish…
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RubyLove commented on MoonLittleMoon’s photo 10:53am
sweet, sweet kitty.…
RubyLove gave hollidayddd a thanks 10:52am
:D Thank you so much for the encouraging words!! No, you didn't ramble, or go to far. I have to run right…
RubyLove gave hollidayddd a moment of peace 10:54am
Hi doll! I hope things get better for you soon. xoxoxoxo…
November 13, 2009 2:43pm
So, back in June, at 2 something in the morining, I wrote down this ridiculous, impossible, outlandish - comprehensive - list of qualities I wanted …
August 19, 2009 5:15pm
My heart aches with imagined regret....my eyes swim with sorrow and mouth trembles with apologetic pleas.
I'm sorry....I hope I did the …
August 18, 2009 10:03am
I danced last night.
When I listen to music, I "see" motion,
movements and colors...
When I dance, you see what I "see",
what I …
August 17, 2009 9:04am
I'm very sad today.
It feels like I'm running out of time. When I was in the hospital with the last miscarriage, the doctor …
August 14, 2009 2:13pm
So I went to Jason's practice last night - he asked me to. The new synth player - the girl - was supposed to be there, but apparently she …
Speaking of Doll! You are a Doll! Hey and by the way, my youngest daughter, her nickname is Dolly! Because she looked like a doll when she was a baby and that is what everyone said about her. I still call her Dolly to this day and she is 4 1/2 now as of next week. Today my hubby and I were looking at her preschool photo and my husband brought up the miscarriages that I had had prior to her and the suffering that I went through with the pain of loosing my little embryos. He said to me, "What if someone showed you this photo of this beautiful little girl? and you knew she was ahead of you in the future?". My jaw just dropped open. My little Cassidy loves to cuddle and I am telling you I love those cuddles more than anything, well she has an older sister who will be 10 in March and she is still in to cuddling. I love affection and so do my girls which makes my life feel so fantastic. My husband sneaks a few cuddles in there too. Boy, I just rambled on didn't I? Anyways, I had my 10 year old and then it took 5 years to have my youngest with the losses. And I mentioned to you the progesterone? It was imperative for me! I realized that I was taking progesterone for my first to get my period going because I went off the pill and I was irregular and BOOM I was pregnant. After my 3 losses I remembered, Doh! I was on the prog. and so I need it again. I went to a new GYN and got the prog. suppositories and BOOM I was pregnant again and I had to keep taking the prog. to sustain the pregnancy and everything worked out. I was 42 at this time :o)
So with your beautiful attitude with life I would love to see it change in regards to a more positive outlook towards being able to have children and to be a mom. You are so sweet and loving here to people and I can tell that you are SO full of love and tenderness to be a mom! It is proven that praying helps as well and even if you aren't religious you can meditate good thoughts towards bringing life to your womb. Forgive me if I am going to far with this but I just want to help. So kick out the bad energy and bring in the good! You will have your babies Miss RubyLove!
I am feeling good about this :o)
hiya. had my lap.. it was fine. got a diagnosis from it... although they dont know much about the condition so i had to see someone else to get a further more indepth diagnosis with a venography dye injection. i have pelvic congestion synrome.
how are you going ? xx im waiting to have surgery
hi ruby, how are you going ? so.. whos your dance partner? ;)
x
hello fellow ballroom dancer, what a coincidence eh !
beautiful photo... i just love it... so deep
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I've had two miscarriages...the last one on June 25th. I'm heartbroken and feel worthless. There isn't any hope
I have endometriosis pretty bad, along with severe internal scarring...limited ability to conceive and carry to term...which is all I want in this lifetime.
