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ToniL 
Two days ago. I was reading Inmorghell's entry. I was having a bad day. In and out of tears all day. The strength you showed, made me ashamed of myself. It seemed that you try so hard,to keep yourself going. Some times I just give up, and tell myself I'll never get better. I know that your mind plays a big part in healing, I keep telling myself it's going to get better. In the past I have had some bad medical problems,and I always get back to normal. Or I can can accept the problem.The thing with morgelleons, you never no when your done for the day. My family and the few friends I have think I'm a hypocondriact. I don't have big sores that you can see. Mine is like every hair follicle is burning,stabing, and won'stopIts gets so bad i feel like, i should just put something like clorox, on it. I have lots of cremes and oiinments,that work for a while. Then it loses it affect real fast. What really hurts me, is I have a little dog named gidget. And she has it too. I'M always taking her to the vet. Who I feel thinks I'm crazy.I've seen how much she has changed just this past year.She has all these babies(stuffed animals) That she always is carrying around with her.she licks and cleans them constantly.If I mop or vacume,she takes them to a safe spot..I need to go now,I had a mole remove on my backside it ia rally hard to sit. Untill tomorrow;;;; ToniL from NorCA.
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Hello Toni.... Have you tried MMS (miracle mineral supplement)? @ have had good results from this. (ou can take it orall to get it into the bloodstream, and also bathe in it, and I can send you the link for how to do this as you need a certain amount of citric acid per drop so as to activate it. MMs (1 bottle) lasts for quite sometime as yoy only start w/ 2 drops, but you may want to start with one because of your current health issues. as for your pet, forget the vet (love to rhyme). Nutrasilver cured my cat from near death. my opinion is that it is worth the price. DO NOT FEEL ASHAMED!!!! NOTHING TO BE ASHAMED OF, IF ANYTHING GET PISSED OFF AND FIGHT WITH THE BEAUTIFUL SPIRIT I KNOW YOU HAVE AS DO US ALL! as I love to say, "don't let this or any negative experience get make you weak, get strong from it" it's not easier said than done either cause you're still here and we all have each other, haven't we?
ps check your messages later I'm going to send you one after I wake from my usual insomnia induced coma! keep your head up and never look down!
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inmorghell (drea)
inmorghell
inmorghell, thank-you for your response! as for MMS I don't what it is, I would like know what is and how to use. I have nutrasilver how would igive to he? You made my day today, I'm starting to get pretty depressed again. thr derm. doctor gave me a fungal pill to take for my feet. the rx is for three months , the pill made me felt a lot better for a while. I should feel a lot better, my biopsy turned out that the cancer was gone.I'm going to close for now as i"m in a lot of pain. I feel honored to have you as a friend. It seems like I have no friends left. I will write again early before I start feeling so bad. if you could help me find my way around here I would really appreciate it. I hope you sleep well. Goodnight and a big hug from me. Toni L from north ca.
ToniL
P.S. TONI i AM NOT AS STRONG AS i APPEAR TO BE BUT i FIGURE i HAVE 2 CHOICES, BE STRONG (AT LEASAT TRY TO) OR BE WEAK AND WALLOW IN SELF PITY. NOT THAT YOU ARE, BUT i STILL CRY EVERYDAY, AND AM GOING THROUGH SOME PRETTY TOUGH TIMES. I HAVE NO FAMILY, FRIENDS, OR ANY SUPPORT FROM FAMILY AND KIDS. IM WRITING A BOOK AND MAKING A WEBSITE. IF YOU WOULD LIKE TO HELP EMAIL ME AT THE ADDRESS I GAVE YOU IN YOUR OTHER JOURNAL ENTRY. HANG IN THERE AND KNOW YOU ARE LOVED, THIS SUFFERING WON'T BE FOREVER, THOUGH I KNOW IT SEEMS THAT WAY. i WOULD ALSO LIKE TO WRITE A BOOK AND INCLUDE YOURS AND KIMERA'S HELP ALONG WITH ANYONE ELSE WILLING TO CONTRIBUTE THEIR INFORMATION.
LOVE,
ANDREA
inmorghell
inmorghell. I had'nt read my email for a couple days. It was really good to have email from you and bozwell. It helps so much to talk with people, who know how you feel,and what you are going thru. I'm learning not to say much to family or friends, they half listen. If I was to tell them somethings, they would not belive it,are gross them out.. its hard to suffer in silence. It's not sympathy I want it's understanding.You feel like your are along in this world. It is reallyhard not to be really depressed. I felt pretty good. taking the antifungal medication. for three months, it has come back not full course yet, but each day its a lttle worse...I need to finish washing my clothes. Which is a daily thing now. I will email you at your email address. I'm really am tired now, which I hope passes. Till tomorrow. Hope you have a good night sleep. I will think of you this evening.With a soft butteryfly kiss on your cheek,you deserve a face full. Love Toni
ToniL
Hi Toni how have you been? I haven't been so good, life really sucks right now, so I pretend to be strong hoping that I will be. I don't have any friends either, I am in the exact same boat you are as far as everything you've said. I am really really depressed, it just seems like my world is falling apart sometimes, and there isn't anything I can do about it. So now I'm just mad as hell at the world and I do feel so alone. Nothing is ever going to be the same and that makes me sad, so maybe I need a change. It's complicated, but there are things going on in what I used to call life right now that make matters so much worse. You are so sweet, you know we aren't that far away from each other, maybe one day I will decide to take a trip to where you are. I've been through there before and it's really beautiful. If you ever need anything please let me know. I'm not a doctor, but I made it to the last semester in nursing school, but technically I would have passed if I had gone to another school (RN). the school i went to required an 80 to pass and I got a 77. So I know a little something. Hugs and butterfly kisses back at ya my dear friend, sleep well and goodnite. talk to you soon.
Andrea
inmorghell